Saturday, December 31, 2011

Opposite Of Adults

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Live a life where everyone can win
where there isn't many problems or worries about hell or sin
It's the end of this year,so as we all prepare to welcome the new year
Leave all the negativity behind and only spread good cheer
Open your eyes and begin to see something new
you may discover something new you love...which you never knew

Picture things as a story where we all have happy endings
And people never reject the positive message you always try sending
Where someone can give you something & not expect anything back
Instead of kindness & was only hate for others they seem to lack

No rainy days....or no need for the blues
Time waited for everyone...and every second was filled with good news
People don't judge and no one points fingers
Even the ones don't make it on American Idol,gets a chance to be world wide singers
The visions you have,has a chance to be
And the dreams you have,start to really play out in reality

See what you want to see
Believe in whatever you want to
Love like its out of style
And never say goodbye
Listen to the ones who are never heard
Live life free,fly high like a bird
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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Echoes Of

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Here we are we go
Let your mind relax...and let your troubles go
Escape to where it's safe one can replace you
Your picture is the background to my dreams
All the nightmares have vanished...getting closer to happiness
at least that's what it seems
Where we are today....isn't where we will be tomorrow
Love is in the air...mixed with a hint of sorrow
A place below the close enough
But when we are together...There is no such thing as close enough
In a couple of days...I will be gone
Leaving everyone behind....just always feels so wrong
Reality is such a scary thing...
Living life in denial...just trying to win
Win at a game we all seem to lose
With so many options flying around
How come we never get to choose
Every breath we take
Every step we take
Just leads us to life's little friend,,,,,

Not knowing what everyone knows
never going the direction they wish to impose
blocking out my I can die with my foes
may my friends live some where better
a place where happiness...& love seem to come together

The tree cant move....but the leaves can surely fly away
why do we put birds in cages...then hate it when they fly away
why cant we just let things be free
why are some of us never given a chance to see
born blind....maybe we should all be
see life through our hearts
and only speaking softly....

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Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Look What You've Done

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You did so much for me,now it's time for me to do for you
21 years of raising me & my little brothers,only lord knows all the stuff you've been through
Always were so stubborn,but for your kids you did your best
After working all these years mom,I know its about time you get some rest
Working hard in a world where finding work is hard
All the negative feelings for my father,you kept jarred
But we did it without him,Haven't seen you since August 28th..look how long its been
And I pray that everything goes well with me & the US Air Force
Because I know how proud a mom must be to know their first son made it to the US Air Force
I moved around alot as a kid,but you believed in me no matter what I did
So I've been receiving alot over the years,now its my turn to give
I love you & my little all mean the world to me
I don't always show my emotions...but this right here is me expressing how much you mean to me
Just to let you know that everything you did,hasn't been forgotten
I hope that gift I sent you on Christmas made up for all the other presents I've forgotten
It isn't mothers day,but I wanted to write you time poem anyway
Life is short,but the struggle last long
And you are a wonderful mom to us,don't let anybody else ever tell you wrong
I know you love watching basketball,and you see those players give their parents nice houses & cars
If its destined to be...I'll do my best mom to make sure that one days,that's ours
Always keep your head up mom....every thing will be ok
Just keep being strong & continue to pray
I love you mom...sorry we couldn't be together for my last holiday....
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Monday, December 26, 2011

Echoes Of Silence

That I'm here for you...I'm here for you
you need to know I'm here for you
don't matter what they appear to you
I care about you more...willing to shed two tears for you

that's just me putting my heart in the open
waiting for the day you see,what I see..when will your beautiful eyes finally open
The sun shines,The moon glows
We all need each what the planet shows
So don't wait until the stars don't wait that long
For you I don't even write poems anymore..I'll just do my best & write songs
Giving you all I have,never expecting nothing back
The way you look me in my eyes,the way my fingers run down your back
Are we on our way....Are we on our way
Times running out,how I fret that day
But our time is forever,since love never dies
said too many 'I'll talk to later' or just simply too many 'Goodbyes'
So I wont say no I wont say no more
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Sunday, December 25, 2011

Christmas Nights

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On this day I hope you get everything you wanted,All of want you prayed for.Everything you ever dreamed of, Even more than what you prayed for...
May your family be in good spirits,and your hearts full of cheer
Look at how far you've you made it...since the beginning of this year
Tell your loved ones how you feel...and hold them close
Love is the drug of today is the time it's safe to overdose
The best gift you can give a gift you can't buy
Objects may be lost or replaced...but special memories will never die
Spread happiness in the places you know it needs to be spread
Alot of us get lost during these times....while many of us are just needing a helping hand to be lead
The truth is...we should treat each other like this everyday
We shouldn't have to pause these joyful times..we should just let them play
Play through the year,Run throughout the months
Flow between our hearts,Continue to cherish every second since we only live once
The Christmas lights,The chilly nights
The way we feel inside,when it all seems right
Christmas is not a's more like a  feeling
So I wish you & you loved ones...a wonderful evening
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Monday, December 19, 2011

We'll Be Fine

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At the beginning....searching for the end
Always be true to who you reason to pretend
Look at how many things have changed....versus how much stayed the same
The world is filled with people who will either try to polish or stain your name
Notice the ones who are there for you on a daily basis
and erase the ones who send you smiley faces
but behind your back they make up angry faces
Magic is just an illusion....Life is filled with insanity & confusion
The devil tries to play nice...but if you have a strong faith their should be no confusing
Listen to the words that you heart tries to say
but remember to love your self first...Since your all you have...
at the end of the day
(You'll Be Fine)

Before I left,my little brother asked me when will I be back
Couldn't find the words to tell him that I might never be back
Life is about %10 what you do...the rest is just how you react
Always keep the memories...even if you can never keep in contact
(I'll Be Fine)

They can tie our hands...but they can never tie our soul,
We can think about the past but should learn to sometimes let it go...
Seen so many stars.....See many lights
I wonder when the sun is gone for good....would our future still be bright
The end of the year is almost I wish you the very best
Remember to give thanks...and prepare for anything since we don't know what could happen next
But no real worries...I'll believe in you every time
So I guess its safe to say....that
(We'll be fine)
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Wednesday, December 14, 2011

The Ride...

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What happens when your tired of people telling you what to do
when their life is basically at a dead they basically have to depend on you
When the bills ain't paid on time
and you have no Internet or cable.... can't even call for help because your left without a telephone line
When you leave your family in the background
so when you call on holidays & don't know how to act now
The things that bother us the most,are only the things we cant change
Like when the one you love is acting different,and your wishing they didn't change
I guess the season is different so we can blame it on that
You go for a hug....I go for a should our heart's react?
I guess my brother Nathan was right,never give an ex a second chance
because it never seems to end right
But what I'm suppose to so much people I need to stay in contact with
but I still feel alone at the day...this shit is nothing new
Maybe I just needed to vent....look how much love I sent
Look how little was returned...Then look how fast they put their masks on when you say you have returned
Almost the end of the year,would 2012 just be the same
I'll be on my way to another country...packing my entire life on a plane
Would be a bitter/sweet ending if no one ever saw Thomas again
Let me snap out of it,before the depression sits in too deep
I see the ones who always try to fit in...and damn they look weak
I heard the road to happiness is a one way road...
Too bad I'm not looking for that...I'm just searching for another heart of gold
Never doing what I'm told
Never accepting dreams that are being sold
Never falling in love again....until it's my last possible chance...a second before I'm dead...or I'm old
"Hell Is Empty,All the Devils Are Here"-William Shakespeare
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Saturday, December 10, 2011

The Knowing

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You shouldn't have to pick between love & happiness...
They should come together as one...
Seen so many hearts left broken on the floor...
My only want is to fix each & every one...
But how could I....if mine is not even whole....
I'd rather see yours full...then have both of us live forever with this hole

I could sit here all day & repeatably tell you how beautiful you are
but whats the point of a star being a star,if they don't believe they are
I've seen too many tears on your face,I've heard to many cries
Truth is...sometimes we want something so bad...that we will simply believe all the lies
Should we tie the knot?Or just simply break all ties???

I don't hate you....I just hate the facts
Think about what you called me & told did you expect me to react?
I guess this is the end right here....because rumor has it I will be in the UK this time next year

Only so much I can do.....Only so much they can put you through
Then enough's enough...seems that pain is over due
They want your heart....They want you soul
No not really...They just want your body & all they can get
But don't worry about the past,no point of living life with regret
Easy to forgive,but impossible to forget
Living life on the edge....So any step I take is a threat

I'm here on a Air Force base,but I'm still here writing to you
I guess a a little of what they say is true
Home is where the heart it will only make sense why I would want to build a home with you...

The sky,your cry,without air, we die....
The night,your bright,without your love, I die...

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Sorry....The Scientist

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I want to say......sorry.....sorry for leaving
I didn't mean to leave you all alone
I guess some of this is my fault....I did hurt you really bad at one point
now me & misery are well known

Looking back on all these years of people I have gained & lost
I think about Jesus & if any of us would of sacrificed it all & be willing to be nailed on the cross
But I promise I'm only here for you....I've already lost one friend to suicide
I wont let it be two
Now they're tears in my eyes....and its getting harder for me to type
I write for those who ever got picked on or who were told
they were only average or alright
Because I'm still that kid deep down inside
who always has a smile hide the hurt I really feel inside
Some people think your a coward for what you did...but I think your brave
how many other people do you know will take a gun to their head & say goodbye to the world & hello to the grave
So now I feel I let you down,I should of been there to stop you
but sadly enough I was so young I probably wouldn't know what to do....just stand there stupidly & watch you
If life was a game...I would say I already lost
because ever since that day I saw that 'Do Not Cross' yellow tape around your house
I've always been lost
And this was years ago,I shouldn't be crying
I'm in the military now,so I will eventually see other people dying
So much I cant seem to let go of
Too much I seem to know of
only thing that could of saved

Too much I cant seem to let go of
Alot of thing I seem to know of
only thing that can save this

I want to say......sorry.....sorry for leaving
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Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Someone’s Light/Bottled Up by Silvia Saldana

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Doubts are like ships, sinking into the bottomless sea.
Once you go with them, there's no end. So why bother?
Rejoice life, appreciate life.
Learn to value those who are always by your side.
Rather than becoming a sinking ship, become someone’s light and make their life worthwhile.
Show them your appreciation with little signs of affection.
If it’s your girlfriend or boyfriend, show them how much you love them, when they notice it will make their heart warm and their sentiments towards you will grow with strength and passion.
Become their reason to live, their reason to breath.
Become the light that shows them the path to a loving wonderful life
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Bottled Up

I need a punching bag, all this madness is making me gag.
Could it be some kind of mental illness, or is it that I just worry too much about anything worthless.
Trying to forget isn't as easy as trying to forgive.
Been too nice, been to considerate. Now I just want to blow up a mine and see everything fall, disintegrate.
Feeling like a genie in a bottle, trapped with no escape.
Could someone find this bottle and let me out?
Trapped in my own mind trying to figure out my life,
Wishing it would be easy to be who you are
But that’s just a lie.
There’s nothing else but to hope that you’ll make it alive,
I doubt you would mind if I gave up my life.
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      “It is not the magnitude of our actions but the amount of love that is put into them that matters."-Mother Teresa

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Crew Love

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They hate us when we are together,but they love it when we're apart
I hope while I'm don't give these guys all you don't give them your heart
Since the only thing they have on their mind's is whats the best way to start
At towards the end they will leave you broken with your feelings ripped apart
So you've left me burned with desire,you've left your mark
Trying to save this love ship Noah's Ark

At this time and day,I hope you find your way,
I've been gone for a while,so I know how it feels to be away,
But I will always come back.I promised you this,
This writing is my life...and I either hit or miss...
But truthfully I hope I at least hit somewhere in the middle
Never really understanding the meaning of life,seems to be the most difficult riddle

It's never the same,It's never the same
Seen funeral's filled with love & seen hearts filled with pain
But once your name is tattooed there,you cant erase the name
It's like a never ending movie,with only the sad parts replaying

Sad to know that every ship either sinks or breaks
So before I drown,I give you what it takes
Truth to Lies....Lies to Fakes
Give me anything....I'll take it....I just need to forget about these heart aches

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Hate Sleeping Alone

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Gave my heart away...and it seems to be to the wrong one,
Now I see why it's better just chill with you close circle when your trying to have fun,
Since love's no's a serious game,
You either win or retry's here... no trying again,
So I scarficied my name....and I scarficed my time,
Feels like my life is moving forward toward greater things...but I somehow getting left behind,
So how does it feel...are you happy now??
Transferred my lifestyle from civilan to military...and bascially all everyone can say is 'wow'

So what I learn??....It's hard to tell
That maybe this world is filled with wanna be angels...but they're really sent from hell
Locking my heart up....and throwing away the key
Now whoever wants it I guess...will have to bring it to me
And maybe that's the see when you walk away ....who follows
Or who will fill your emptiness...when your life feels hollow
I'm half empty or half full...Happiness looking like a wolf in sheep's I'm scared to see whats underneath the wool
All this has as happened & I still dont understand...Love makes you feel like a little boy again....when your trying to be a man
No longer up to I leave it in God's Hand....

I'll probably hate myself some more after releasing this poem,
Since it allows everyone to read....what I'm feeling inside from all the way back home,
But I cant hold back when I write...It just all comes through
I hate sleeping alone.....but what's even worse is I hate sleeping without you....
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Thursday, November 24, 2011

Sure Thing

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So here we a place I cant describe
where one heart hears the other one knocking so the first heart decides to hide
but you cant hide forever....all things come to light
been having alot of rainy days....but everything we be alright
so look outside the window and tell me what you see
life promised me a sure I wonder what that will be
will I become rich?famous?or just an undiscovered soul
I just driving on the highway to heaven....trying to skip the toll
because I've given so much to people....almost feels like there is nothing left
everyday has its I guess there must be something left....

I wish you could hear the words my heart has to say...
Even if when we talk......our conversation's don't always end the right way
Not point of simply casting away our hope,and trying to dash faith away
Nothing set in stone...but you have my word.... in my thoughts you will forever stay....

Love me while I'm here....then go ahead & hate me when I'm gone
Sorry for the wait....never expected things to take so long
The sun's coming out....we can make it a beautiful day
Happy Thanksgiving...I hope you all just take a little moment to pray
Be thankful for what you have.....and even for what you've lost
Since sometimes it takes losing something very help us realize we've been lost
Lost in sin,Lost in Hate,Lost in Love....One day we'll all sit among the stars....No, we'll sit high, high above

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One this day everyone....take a close note to the ones who try to make you laugh & smile everyday. Remember the ones who only wanted/wants the best for you....Because those are the ones who actually care....If your close to a loved one or friend...hug them, write them a something to let them know you care...Because those of us who are the military...give up holidays like you can live without fear....One sure thing before I go....The world may not be a perfect place...But never ever.....let go
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Monday, November 14, 2011

Doing It Wrong

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Sometimes I wish it would just happen already...and happen fast
because who I'm i kidding...I'm I gonna be able to last??
as I start to put some future thought in my past
you had my heart covered up....and you used your lies as the mask
'What I'm doing wrong'you ask... I reply...look within yourself for the answer...that's not something you should ask....

Too much things I've lost,but yet still so much I have gained,
I've lost the time I had with you,but gained a little release of pain,
but now when we get married,it will be a nice private island where you can only get there by plane,
and its not about money,its about love....and it looks like out of all the guys,I'm the only one whose paying,
so I spend and spend my love on you until there is nothing left,besides...without love in the world...what really do we have left?
when I hear your name,I see us spinning in my mind...and I will treat you like your in the military...make sure your never left behind.
so I keep you on my time,so your always on my watch,
and your beautiful is my favorite sight,so how could i help not to watch
but beauty will fade,so that's why I love you for who you are
and I'm constantly on the I hope you can feel my love from afar
similar to how we can never be close,but yet see the the brightness from a star
which is exactly what you are..........*a star

I really don't know whats going to happen next,
Some of us will find that new love...while some of us just stay missing our ex
Stuck in our own little world looking to find that person who we think is best
Which will never happen...because it has nothing to do with your have to feel it in your chest
So take a deep breath,close your eyes and start to think,
You know you found the one when silence is in the room,but yet your souls start to sync
So don't unplug our love....that's the wrong thing to do
They ask me what I believe in...but I never answer...I just turn and look at you.....
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Sunday, August 28, 2011

Gone Until Another Day

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So much left for me to say,So much left for me to do,
So before we say our goodbye's...I wanted to leave this poem for you...
You can always make it,You just have to be strong,
Since even when your right,people would like to make you feel like your wrong,
Without the rain,or the pain...all the sunny day's & happiness wouldn't feel the same,
When your stuck in the struggle,just remember to stay humble,please always think twice...and try to stay out of trouble,
Don't let anyone confuse you,or drag you down the wrong way,
Keep your head up,and make the best of everyday,
I know you will be ok...don't ask me why,
God puts us to the test,and all you have to do is try,
I have faith in you,and all that you do,
Be all you can be....& always stay you
It will be a couple of weeks,but I will be back
Just know the image of your smile,always was something that kept me on track
Your something I thought I would of never knew,something so true
Now when I'm away I always want to be right next to you,
When I'm Gone....I Wish I Could Be Right Next To You.

I hope I made you feel you always had a place
that we could escape to the stars....and we didn't even need space
Everything will always work out,no need for any doubt
I will give you what you need,just tell me the amount,
Because what we have is timeless...and if I went looking I would be sure to find less
Once you have the can only find 2nd best
So I let my heart do all the seeing and I put my eyes to rest,
I bet blind people can see beyond when we can,isn't our life a mess?
Try to stay away from the negative and the bad,the people who are 2 faced & who always make you sad,
Life is nothing but a never-ending circle unless you try to break the chain,
I had a friend name Kevin....and after he took his own life was never the same...
Now when your away,I always want to be right next to you,
When Your In Heaven,I Wish I Could Be Right Next To You.

Never give up,constantly hold on
Your heart plays the beat,to someone's favorite song,
Your eye's show the way to a paradise they have never seen,
And when they fall asleep....your the only thing they will ever dream,

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Friday, August 26, 2011

Dear You

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'A Powerful Message...Or Maybe A Powerful Poem...Whatever It Is...These Are My Thoughts...While Listening To The Zone'
So I'm here thinking about you,
Seems like our days talking are almost through,
Wishing I was dreaming,but I woke up into a nightmare
Worst feeling in the world to not see you right here....

who sees what you see?
who cares when you care?
who fills that emptiness,when you feel no love near........

one in a million,or a million in one
its fun when we all start,but don't forget what happens when its all said & done
some one has to win,someone has to lose,
one must feel the heartbreak...but neither one leaves without a bruise
so who do you choose?
or is he already can have all the hearts in the world...but you would of wasted your love unless one was golden,

Don't waste your time thinking of him,no point of even talking to her
Constantly thinking of building a better & brighter future,so the darkness in the past is now just a blur
I just hope you remember one thing.....Love is about a bond.....and marriage isn't about a ring...

This is just a free-write,but I hope it helps you see right,you cant expect tomorrow to be bright,if you give your self to darkness every time you feel night,Be proud of what you do,take confidence in what you say,and make the sun of your clouds....never be gray,May the stars always twinkle,and your wishes all come true,just don't always be you...yeah girl,just always be you....xo
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Thursday, August 25, 2011

In My Zone

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So....I'm sitting here in my zone,
Almost time for me to go,so I slowly remove myself from the throne,
Looking at the pieces to our puzzle realized you did it all on your own,
You feel safe but then everythings broken like a earthquake hitting your own home,
A place I made for myself,Another place I set for you,
It's moments like this when all the time is running out,
so we sometimes forget the correct things to do,
I take a deep breath....& do my best to close my eyes,
But I cant seem to dream,since your the best....and I hope you realize,
Everything you did.....Everything you done,
Calling you the first time was hard for me,but saying goodbye is never fun,
Just the sound of your voice,always made everything better...
As I fast forward to basic training,I'm slowly awaiting your letter,
You were always so much trouble,You were always so rude,
Something about that sweet attitude that always kept me glued,
I wish we could lay together forever.....and never ever move,
Since when we're together...the mood always starts to improve,
I would die for you....just so I can prove,
That once were in my zone...even death is something you can elude,
So if you have something to say ...please say something before I go....Even if I don't want to say yes...
I will never say no..
All these people I'm forced to let go....teaches me life is full with problems & that is all I know,
I hope when I see you again...things will still feel the same,
Looks like my heart's been scribbled over....with writing of different fonts of your name,
Which helps dilutes the pain,without love or music....I would of never stayed sane,
"If you love something,set it free, if it come back it's yours,if it doesn't,it never was"I just keep replaying  that saying..
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Friday, August 12, 2011

Thank You.

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As my thoughts begin to sink in,and I begin to write
I think about all the people I've ever met & bonded with over my life
Not going to say all the names because that would take forever
Just want you to know that if we ever shared a smile....That I will remember it forever
Maybe I'm far away...or maybe I'm close to you
But there is one thing I hope that always remains true...
That you have all the happiness in the world & you complete everything you ever set your mind to
Maybe we talk once in a while....or we talk every day
Just know if your ever can always walk my way
Maybe we'll grow old...or maybe we'll die young
Just make sure you cherish everyday like its your safe & have fun
Love always shines....that's how I'll find you

So I took the time to write this poem 'Thank You',just to always remind you...
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Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I Believe It's You

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A face no one else can see
 A place no one else can be
  A day where I wish everything would just end
   A night where a look in the mirror shows your worst friend
    A time no girl can ever replace
     A moment where my feelings cant seem to face
The Truth....
A feeling when everything is right
 A sight similar to when the sunlight helps shows the moonlight
  A answer I cant seem to find
   A question how long would you be mine
    A bruise that will never heal
     A false feeling that just feels so real
The Illusion....
A step in the wrong direction
 A leap over a hurdle that every one see's but never mentions
  A star that doesn't shine bright
   A sky that always shows night
    A dream that we both thought alike
     A nightmare that might
Come True...
A little to late I might be
 A little to restricted to be free
  A lot more hurt that I should of been
   A lot more we could of been
    A new light I see in you
     A girl named (        ) I believe its you
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Monday, July 18, 2011

Forever Young

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I take a deep breath & a step back
just because we fall behind,doesn't mean its a set back
whats glory without struggle....whats joy without pain??
whats the point of living life in a negative no one would be able to rejoice your name?
Live it to the fullest,just don't go over the edge
since I know we all have those moments when we just want to quit,close our eyes and walk over that ledge
maybe to see what will happen when your gone
but lets not think that way,lets just replay your favorite song
play it loud,as loud as it can go
and if everybody ask's what your doing
tell them 'making them making the best of things' so thats all they need to know
things go bad for good things to make them better
and we make mistakes today,so that tomorrow we will know better
we can never know it all but thats ok
right....or wrong we all have to pick our own way

Missing all the wonderful times....but I know some will come again
Don't worry about counting your enemies,just worry about keeping count of all your true friends
Maybe I can write you a story
Maybe I can write you a song
But think about it this way...
If we all try and do the hell can anything go wrong
It was to good to be true, least I stayed true,.......what about you?

Monday, July 11, 2011

So Fly

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Don't you wish we didn't have to play this game....When you have to act like you don't care....or that the other person is to blame....
Because I've heard a lot of stories...and they all seem to end the same....
With one person left broken....and the other one trying to forget 'whats his/her name....'
Your driving for forever....while they're in the opposite lane...
One speeding for just driving towards pain...
No going back....Karma's the pilot of this plane....
                                   -So Fly-
What's beautiful to me......may be ugly to you....
Everything is starting to get at me....what I'm I suppose to do?
Give Up........Keep Trying......Leave Something Old.......Find Something New
Stop looking for exits.....And learn how to move through....
One by........One..........Two by...........Two.........
Must of had wings of an angel.........look how fast you flew......
                                   -So Fly-
What goes up,must eventually come down,
by the time that happens,sorry I wont be around,
It will be too late... too late.....but I always wish you the great great....
        -"Nothing lasts forever. Forever's a lie. All we have is what's between hello and goodbye"-
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Thursday, July 7, 2011

Is It You?...Is it Me?

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Take a step......don't look back......your right......they wrong
The identity......of you letting me......go
Is so misconstrued...that I think of just go
sometimes....our minds...don't think twice, then.... try to rewind
keep searching for reasons,no one's meant to find
The answer,the it you?is it me?
could it be....that one day freedom for everyone would be free
because I can still see....the lock that humanity has put on you...and me
The words they program us to say...the style they want us to be
Who will stand it you?is it me?
So they use love as a weakness & hate as a weapon,
But we're no better because we play follow the leader without using any discretion,
Not forgetting to mention,that we watch the news on tv but our minds are too distracted to actually pay attention,
So we sit & watch and maybe sometimes pray,
But if you don't promote or take some action today..then what really are you trying to say
Tell show me instead
Blood inside our veins may be blue...but we still bleed red
I just need some one to say the right words that just haven't been said...
But could you please do it quickly ....before the good in us is dead....
Tell show me instead
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Friday, July 1, 2011

Wicked Games

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So we're stuck in the same place....with no where left to go,
I'm asking you all the correct questions....but you pretend nothing is wrong & avoid answering so what I'm I missing to know,
You look me in the face & tell me everything is fine,
even though deep inside I counting down the days because I know sooner or later you wont be mine,
Is everything good just meant to turn bad?
Always see smiles on people's faces...but if you look a little bit closer you can see their really sad
I tell you to close your eyes,open your heart & tell me what you see,
whatever it is...I would go to any degree just to get it for you...just to make you happy
What  I'm trying to tell something you really need to hear,
Sad,but still like I'm the only one that really seems to care
Shot to the heart....stabbed in the back,
when it's from the one you the hell are you suppose to react?
I put it all on the heart,my mind,my soul,
And the only thing you have to that giant black your heart,
it's already starting to rip us apart,saying you don't want to live a life unnoticed..but I don't think this is how you really want to leave a mark,
If takes half as much to be a believer than to be an achiever,
Just because she says she loves you...doesn't mean it's smart to actually believe her
Sad to see that many people fail to be real with themselves...
Now I just wonder when you look in the mirror..'Can/Do You Even See Yourself'..
Give me a chance & I will change how you feel...

what to do?what to say?
it only makes sense that we were given a heart to give love away
I always do my keep you from doing your worse,
I guess this ability to have empathy for others is starting to feel like a curse...
But I still seem to love to blame or I'm I crazy...either way I don't know why,
So I just drift,drift,drift away until I am no more,
Guess you can never be completely fixed once you've been broken from the core,
we should be defined for who we are.not what we do,
never judge a person by their actions without trying to get to know them first...since you don't have the slightest clue what they might have been through,
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Thursday, June 23, 2011

Trust Issues...

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If you have never been in the dark,then how would you know to appreciate light?
And if anything hasn't gone would you know when they're right?
I don't want to be heartless....I just wish I knew how to use my heart less,
because through the structure of things,I've ended up with this heart mess...
You can never completely fix something once it's been broken,
But you will never know whats behind that closed door,if you don't use your courage to make it open,
Any step forward,Is a step in the right direction,
And we are able to make mistakes in life,so we can show ourselves that we are strong enough to correct them,
Never let anyone hold you down...and as God as my witness I promise to never let you drown,
Because sometimes it feels like the rain is pouring down and it's never going to stop,
Or like your always stuck between a hard place & a rock,
You will get out that hard place eventually....believe in yourself to find the key,
Then everything will open.....maybe you just need to look harder because I promise you the signs are showing...

I can see myself not trusting myself,because I followed my heart and look where I got myself,

A place where is broken and so low, I do my best to hide it in person,but in my poems they always show,
As I look at all these pictures and start to miss all the people I've ever met,Their is a part of me that is full of regret,So how I'm suppose to move forward?When I don't know where is the best place to take my next step?
I feel like we are here for one reason and that is to love...Love in silence or Love in words either way as long as you both feel it...the important thing is your love is being heard,

Your the only one...since I don't trust these....
Singing from the heart,so tell me if you hear me,
I can see people nearby but still cant feel anyone near me,
Sometimes I sit & wonder whats it going to take to make all our dreams come true,
then the answer fell from the isn't much....just takes you to believe in you,
So thats what I hope you do,because me believing in you is nothing new,
Looking for some things,and I think that I can find them in you
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Monday, June 13, 2011

Marvin's Room

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 Times moving fast,life's moving slow
wish there was a safe place,for me to let all this go....
I remembered everything I was trying to forget,
Feeling like I was almost there...guess not yet...
The bad choices seem to over shadow the good ones I make,
Thankfully I always have my real friends who always outnumber the fake,
So hard to find that one person who can be real with you,
Since even when you find them,look at all the difficulties the world decides to put you through,
When you give someone everything,you have to be careful since you can be left with nothing...
The nights start feeling uneasy...the restless times seem to never end,
I keep telling myself I'm happy...but whats the point of me trying to pretend,
Holding on to something that maybe we should of let go,but its worth the chance because when its all said and done in the end we may never know,
A place where two hearts have never been,feeling like we have been in heaven even though we decide to live in sin,
They say what they want....they can never know the real you & I,bounced back from the lowest of the highest of highs,
Nothing worse then the sound of a goodbye....
Or hearing that sorry, your too much of a nice guy
Nothing good about saying bye to one you love so it's more like a bad-bye...
Or knowing that she will probably end up with the wrong guy....