Thursday, October 31, 2013


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You bring me up..
But you still hold me down
You're always still there..
Even when no one else is around
Without you,I would probably float away
I guess I need you more than I think..what more can I say
I'm drawn to you..I'm not even sure why
They say 'seeing is believing' ,I guess that can sometimes be a lie
We don't know what we have until it's gone
Taking you for granted for so long,why is it so easy to do wrong
When will you finally let me go..
I'm not sure if that's really an answer I really want to know
The day you disappear,my entire world will change
I guess when that happens..we will finally understand the word strange
You're one of the greatest things that has happened to me..
I would say your name..but I'd rather mouth it silently
Just want to continue seeing you,move along the journey of life..happily 

I just want to say thank you,thank you for everything
You always gave me so much,even when I didn't give back anything

We lose
But we also gain
We feel pleasure
But we also feel pain
We all live to die
But still some aren't treated the same
We love & we hurt
But in the end will it all be worth?
We give & we take
But at the end of day..decisions are only ours to make 
We may fail
But it's important to try
We cry & we smile
But don't worry about a thing,great thing sometimes take a while
We say hello & we say goodbye
But there isn't a moment,when I wouldn't want to see your beauty in front of my eye
We all have to play this game
But we sometimes lose
Not even gravity can hold you back..
Your destiny is yours to choose..
So be something great
Not matter what they's never too late
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Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Bed Peace

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Finding peace within ourselves is sometimes the hardest thing to find
We all have those nights where we can't sleep because thoughts keep running through our mind

No heartbreak last forever
Things might break,but that's only for better things to come together

Today might suck,but tomorrow will be better
Would tattoo the entire alphabet for you,yeah every letter

And now things are so strange,the miscommunications are multiplying  
I just want for us to be on the same page

Why won't anyone else express how they really feel
I'm slowly learning how to love myself,maybe now I can heal

Stop caring what people think..
To be honest..most people don't think

Be who you want to be,love what you want to love
Kiss in the rain,play in the mud

Life is about the simple things,we sometimes expect too much
Take your time to appreciate the little things,why are we always in a rush

Likes are cool,but you know what's better
A hug or a gentle touch

So I hope this is touching you..
I always try to run away..but I know that's not the right thing to do

So I'll embrace all the love & the hurt
We're all different, but sometimes the tiny bit of difference can make things work

Only you can say what's your true worth
I only want you to have happy tears,like the moment of a babies birth

Before I end this poem,I just want to say I hope you find peace
We all have something special inside us,it just take sometime to release 
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Tuesday, October 15, 2013


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And it's like only this can bring me to a place where I'm calm
A safe haven where no one can see all that I did wrong
A place where I feel I finally belong
The only question I ask why did it take this long

Tomorrow never comes,it always slips away
Sometimes I wonder if certain people truly believe in the things they say
It really doesn't mean much anyway.. unless they're promoting love or a better way
Been told too many just relax..everything will be okay

Trying to stay away from the norm
They only teach us what they want us to learn
It's like our hearts were meant to be torn
The ones who play with fire eventually get addicted to the burn

And I'm gone..So sorry I'm gone 
In my always come along
In a weak society where only the ones with money & power are strong
Looking forward to the day,when the ones at the top are finally gone

I'm going to make some mistakes along the way so don't hate me
Wondering if God took more or less time to create me
How far am I away from marriage & a baby
On this pursuit to happiness..hoping I get there safely

They don't understand..and the probably never will
Most of them don't want anything to change,the believe it's okay to lie & kill
And the doctor's now a days only want to treat you with a shot or a pill
Little do they know,the more artificial things will put in our body..the more we get ill

So much things to change,just so little time
I'm learning to remove all the restrictions that were placed upon my mind
They say everyday there is a secret sign
Leave tomorrow in the future and the past all behind

Sometimes I think she's too good to be true
Learned from the past I'm better off locking up my heart & throwing away the key too
I can't live thinking of what if,so this time that's something I won't do
Seen a lot who are just reckless with their bodies,but I know they're some worthy few
So this goes out to you..

Miserable people will do anything to destroy a good thing
It has nothing to do with you..but who they are within
Some are just uncomfortable in their own skin
Some just belittle others as a sick way to fit in
But what they don't know is in the end they won't win
Because when they look in the mirror,their light inside will be so thin
They won't shine as bright as you
You don't know what you got until it's gone,just thought I should remind you.,.
And I never was good with saying goodbyes
Hate looking people in the eyes
The only ones who know,are the ones who try
Live your life in a way,that you will have no regrets..when it's time to say goodbye..
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Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Too Much

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And it always seems like I think about it too much
It made sense that the further I moved away,the more we would lose touch
I got family that I don't hear from,and they don't hear from me
It's like all the love was ripped away from me & my family
We have all these mediums of contact,but none of it really helps
Hate to say it,but the next time we will probably meet will be at a funeral and we won't have anyone to blame but ourselves
My head is always spinning,it's like my thoughts never stop
It feels like I have to carry all the dead weight by myself,without a helping hand it's all just gonna drop

You will probably hear from me less & less
No matter how perfect I try to paint my world,it just always end up in this beautiful mess
It's like there isn't a way to avoid all this stress
I've lost contact with almost all of my closest friends…now a days..I just feel like whose next?
I don't really think the grass in greener on the other side
It's just that sometimes anything it better than being on this side
Tired of hiding all my feelings that are probably in my best interest to hide
I barely ever talk about it anymore..but October is the month my best friend committed suicide 
It's so crazy to think he would be the same age of me
Why didn't he have anything to say to me?
Maybe I was too busy with my others friends,that I failed to see
Now that's one of the things I always have to live of the biggest pains to me
I hate being here,and I hate being there..I feel like I hate being everywhere 
Most of the time I want to disappear,but care too much about the ones that care

After a while we start to see life in a different light..
It seems the news talks more about what's going wrong,than what we can do right
Part of the military but still, some of the battles at home are the hardest to fight..
What do you know about not being able to sleep at night
So far away from home,it would be at least an 8 or 9 hour flight
I just pray that if something ever goes wrong,I will make it home in time to look you in the eyes and tell you everything will be alright
I think about it too much..because I feel like some think about it too less
I don't feel like I signed up for this
I just want to hold you close & give you kiss
But I'm always at work,missing all the important moments someone dear to your heart shouldn't miss
I'm so sorry this happens so much
I hope at the end of it all,there is still us.
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