Sunday, November 3, 2013

Good People

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There will be few good people in your life..Ones who you know for sure you were meant to cross paths with..Ones who  continuously make a positive impact on you..
Ones who see the bad in you but still choose to stick around..
Learn to appreciate these people..because there will come a time when they can no longer be around..~

You know that person who always tried to tell you the right things to do..
Who when you need a hug or a helping hand..they gave you two..
That no matter how deep in the mud you were..they would help you get through 
You know the person who always put themselves in other peoples shoe

I'm always in my feelings..and I'm learning that's okay
Someone needs to say..all the things we are thinking..but everyone is just afraid to say
I met this person the other day..
And after they told me their story..I started thinking a different way

The type of person you can call at any time or night
That no matter what you did to hurt them,they are still more concern on making sure you're alright
That when your world is so dark and so cold..they become your sun..your warmth and your light
Like the person who taught you how to ride a bike,the most important lesson you can to remember to always get back up after you fall
no giving up in sight

An ear to let it all out to,a shoulder to cry on
No need for a play list,they know all your favorite songs
When people talk bad about them,you know it's not true
In my head all I can think is..if only they knew the real you

You're something great
No matter how far off the topic is..we somehow always relate
We both know what's real & what's fake
Watch out or the ones who won't help you prepare it,but are only there to eat your cake
Learning happiness is something we can all create
"It's better to be hated for who you are,then to be loved for who you are not"
That's probably one of the most important thing in this poem that I was trying to state..
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Thursday, October 31, 2013


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You bring me up..
But you still hold me down
You're always still there..
Even when no one else is around
Without you,I would probably float away
I guess I need you more than I think..what more can I say
I'm drawn to you..I'm not even sure why
They say 'seeing is believing' ,I guess that can sometimes be a lie
We don't know what we have until it's gone
Taking you for granted for so long,why is it so easy to do wrong
When will you finally let me go..
I'm not sure if that's really an answer I really want to know
The day you disappear,my entire world will change
I guess when that happens..we will finally understand the word strange
You're one of the greatest things that has happened to me..
I would say your name..but I'd rather mouth it silently
Just want to continue seeing you,move along the journey of life..happily 

I just want to say thank you,thank you for everything
You always gave me so much,even when I didn't give back anything

We lose
But we also gain
We feel pleasure
But we also feel pain
We all live to die
But still some aren't treated the same
We love & we hurt
But in the end will it all be worth?
We give & we take
But at the end of day..decisions are only ours to make 
We may fail
But it's important to try
We cry & we smile
But don't worry about a thing,great thing sometimes take a while
We say hello & we say goodbye
But there isn't a moment,when I wouldn't want to see your beauty in front of my eye
We all have to play this game
But we sometimes lose
Not even gravity can hold you back..
Your destiny is yours to choose..
So be something great
Not matter what they's never too late
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Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Bed Peace

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Finding peace within ourselves is sometimes the hardest thing to find
We all have those nights where we can't sleep because thoughts keep running through our mind

No heartbreak last forever
Things might break,but that's only for better things to come together

Today might suck,but tomorrow will be better
Would tattoo the entire alphabet for you,yeah every letter

And now things are so strange,the miscommunications are multiplying  
I just want for us to be on the same page

Why won't anyone else express how they really feel
I'm slowly learning how to love myself,maybe now I can heal

Stop caring what people think..
To be honest..most people don't think

Be who you want to be,love what you want to love
Kiss in the rain,play in the mud

Life is about the simple things,we sometimes expect too much
Take your time to appreciate the little things,why are we always in a rush

Likes are cool,but you know what's better
A hug or a gentle touch

So I hope this is touching you..
I always try to run away..but I know that's not the right thing to do

So I'll embrace all the love & the hurt
We're all different, but sometimes the tiny bit of difference can make things work

Only you can say what's your true worth
I only want you to have happy tears,like the moment of a babies birth

Before I end this poem,I just want to say I hope you find peace
We all have something special inside us,it just take sometime to release 
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Tuesday, October 15, 2013


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And it's like only this can bring me to a place where I'm calm
A safe haven where no one can see all that I did wrong
A place where I feel I finally belong
The only question I ask why did it take this long

Tomorrow never comes,it always slips away
Sometimes I wonder if certain people truly believe in the things they say
It really doesn't mean much anyway.. unless they're promoting love or a better way
Been told too many just relax..everything will be okay

Trying to stay away from the norm
They only teach us what they want us to learn
It's like our hearts were meant to be torn
The ones who play with fire eventually get addicted to the burn

And I'm gone..So sorry I'm gone 
In my always come along
In a weak society where only the ones with money & power are strong
Looking forward to the day,when the ones at the top are finally gone

I'm going to make some mistakes along the way so don't hate me
Wondering if God took more or less time to create me
How far am I away from marriage & a baby
On this pursuit to happiness..hoping I get there safely

They don't understand..and the probably never will
Most of them don't want anything to change,the believe it's okay to lie & kill
And the doctor's now a days only want to treat you with a shot or a pill
Little do they know,the more artificial things will put in our body..the more we get ill

So much things to change,just so little time
I'm learning to remove all the restrictions that were placed upon my mind
They say everyday there is a secret sign
Leave tomorrow in the future and the past all behind

Sometimes I think she's too good to be true
Learned from the past I'm better off locking up my heart & throwing away the key too
I can't live thinking of what if,so this time that's something I won't do
Seen a lot who are just reckless with their bodies,but I know they're some worthy few
So this goes out to you..

Miserable people will do anything to destroy a good thing
It has nothing to do with you..but who they are within
Some are just uncomfortable in their own skin
Some just belittle others as a sick way to fit in
But what they don't know is in the end they won't win
Because when they look in the mirror,their light inside will be so thin
They won't shine as bright as you
You don't know what you got until it's gone,just thought I should remind you.,.
And I never was good with saying goodbyes
Hate looking people in the eyes
The only ones who know,are the ones who try
Live your life in a way,that you will have no regrets..when it's time to say goodbye..
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Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Too Much

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And it always seems like I think about it too much
It made sense that the further I moved away,the more we would lose touch
I got family that I don't hear from,and they don't hear from me
It's like all the love was ripped away from me & my family
We have all these mediums of contact,but none of it really helps
Hate to say it,but the next time we will probably meet will be at a funeral and we won't have anyone to blame but ourselves
My head is always spinning,it's like my thoughts never stop
It feels like I have to carry all the dead weight by myself,without a helping hand it's all just gonna drop

You will probably hear from me less & less
No matter how perfect I try to paint my world,it just always end up in this beautiful mess
It's like there isn't a way to avoid all this stress
I've lost contact with almost all of my closest friends…now a days..I just feel like whose next?
I don't really think the grass in greener on the other side
It's just that sometimes anything it better than being on this side
Tired of hiding all my feelings that are probably in my best interest to hide
I barely ever talk about it anymore..but October is the month my best friend committed suicide 
It's so crazy to think he would be the same age of me
Why didn't he have anything to say to me?
Maybe I was too busy with my others friends,that I failed to see
Now that's one of the things I always have to live of the biggest pains to me
I hate being here,and I hate being there..I feel like I hate being everywhere 
Most of the time I want to disappear,but care too much about the ones that care

After a while we start to see life in a different light..
It seems the news talks more about what's going wrong,than what we can do right
Part of the military but still, some of the battles at home are the hardest to fight..
What do you know about not being able to sleep at night
So far away from home,it would be at least an 8 or 9 hour flight
I just pray that if something ever goes wrong,I will make it home in time to look you in the eyes and tell you everything will be alright
I think about it too much..because I feel like some think about it too less
I don't feel like I signed up for this
I just want to hold you close & give you kiss
But I'm always at work,missing all the important moments someone dear to your heart shouldn't miss
I'm so sorry this happens so much
I hope at the end of it all,there is still us.
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Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Love In The Sky

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This world's not for us,it's not what it seems
What we've been promised is death & broken dreams
And maybe a little bit of happiness in between
But where does a king look,when searching for his queen
The good ones are hard to find
Because now we only tend to see with our eyes since it's lust that occupies our minds
We say we want love,but what do we do
Ignore the ones who care, and continue chase the ones who if the tables were turned,wouldn't chase after you
Will we find our love in the sky?
What about all the promises to never say goodbye?
When will all these tears dry?
Why can't I stop asking why? Why
Didn't things work out,
I guess it wasn't meant to be
No matter how hard we try,
There is no way of deleting history
Only way is to cover it up with lies
Which only prolongs the cries

And the teary eyes
I want to take you higher,higher than the birds can fly
I want to take you higher,higher than where the angels go after we die
I want to take you higher,higher than high
Girl,we can do long as our hearts are both willing to try
First we need to learn how to dream
Reality can be mean
We all try to emulate someone of something which we see on the tv or computer screen
When did we lose the feeling of us?
When did life lose its rush?
When did we forget how to touch?
When did my enough not become enough?
Now I'm falling,falling from the sky
Love was my drug & I'm no longer high
Looking down below,I have no one to catch me
Beacause I pushed everyone away,don't even ask me
Why or who,or even how I did
I've just always felt alone,ever since I was a kid
But this isn't about me,it's about us
The easiest thing to break,but the hardiest thing to trust
No love lost.No love maybe sometimes losing is a must
This world's is for us,it's what it seems
What we've been promised is life & a chance to chase our dreams

So dream girl, dream
Find your happiness at any extreme
And we will find our love in the sky
Even if that means in the heavens,after our souls & the earth are no longer tied~
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Thursday, July 25, 2013


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I would hate me too,if you did to me what I did to you
Trying to figure out these life lessons man,but I really don't have a clue
They love the fake smiles, but I'd rather cry to show you what I feel is true
If I could go back,the things I would do
I just continue to go day by day,
Still looking for a way, to truly get away
But you were my getaway,
we use to talk everyday
Now you cross my mind,but I don't know what to say
I let everything else get in the way
I thought playing games were suppose to be easy to play
But I can't and I won't
If your heart's not in it then don't
The pressure leaves,but it always grows back
I always tell my mom I'll call her the next day but I never call back
I guess I'm just trying to grow
If I don't do it alone,how else will I know
Got alot of pride,so I hate asking for help
But don't mind helping others,
 I just pray,that if I don't make it God will look after my mom & little brothers
That's all I ever had,that's all I really know
I put my heart in these poems,because on a day to day basis This side to me isn't what I really show
I try to bring others up,instead of bringing them down
After my first friend killed himself,I promised to fix any frown
Listen to your heart,that's the most important sound
And I'm always here,even if I'm not physically around..

They'll hate you,until they love you,then they'll hate you again
Said bye to alot of people,I wonder if it's my cards to ever see them again
Was so attached,all you had to say was when
And I was there,never get it confused girl,I will always care
I'm not sure if perfect exists,but we could of been a perfect pair
My dad is trying to connect,but I don't want to reconnect
 No, I 'm not bitter,I just feel some things are easier to forget
Don't be like the others,and neglect the ones you should protect
I guess this is how life is,are you willing to try and change it or just be one of those people who don't try & accept
And we're just trying to live out our dreams at any means
Not everything is what it seems
You live & you learn,like it or not,
It's burn or get burned
I hate how life's just turned,into how much you can earn
Instead of how much you can love or learn
Do you still read...for some reason I still believe
I need to know you haven't forgot
You should know who I am,and what I'm not
Made a mistake a got to live with forever
All good things come to a end,but never say never
What's the perfect person if its not the perfect time
That's probably one of my favorite lines
That,and when a heart breaks,it don't break even
Is karma about letting go,or getting even

In my world, our story never ends
As much as we pretend
We either go from friends to enemies or enemies to friends
We all believe in different things..
But if we can't believe in each other..
What do we really believe in.
I hope love is still something you believe in
Don't ever give up
If it doesn't happen now,then it has to happen soon
Just erase all the negativity so love will have room
Use your smile to change the world,don't allow the world to change your smile
Your dreams will come true,it just sometimes takes a while
Before I go, there's something you should know
I just had to go,even if I had no where to go
My own thoughts haunt me before I go to sleep
It takes a strong heart to continue to love, and it's hate that makes a heart weak
And we don't need words to speak
What we shared...will always be unique
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Saturday, July 13, 2013

More Than Okay..

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Respecting the moment,respecting the time
The night is quiet,but when you're alone at night,a million thoughts run through your mind
If there was one line,just one line
To make that one thing yours,To make that one thing mine
Would you say it?or lose your chance to a different time
Sometimes I watch the sky,just searching for a sign
You have to take a moment,you have to enjoy what you have,life without enjoyment should be crime
It's like they locked me up & threw away the key,
I don't think I've ever seen such a soul so beautifully~
I can't play the piano,I can't play the harp
But I can give you my heart & promise to always play my part
Trying to save everything I can,I have a plan like Noah's Ark
But somethings can't be saved,I now see people who I use to wave
To,but nothing last forever,yes this is true
So now we just turn away
And simply just say 'Hey'
How do some people make it throughout the day
How do they sleep at night
But I can't judge, I'm no more wrong...than I am right
Never have I flown a kite
But I can imagine what it feels like
A stranger is just a friend you haven't met yet
And a soul mate is just a stranger you haven't  noticed yet
The first step is always the biggest step
Maybe they can't handle a mile in your shoes
In this game of love,where are the rules
And who wrote them
If someone is falling for you,should you do what is polite & hold them
Or let them fall,into a never ending fall
You lose that sense of fear,once you feel you've experienced it all
Some girls say all men are the same,and some men think all girls are crazy,but who ever said to try them all
Once you find your other half,the world will start to feel small
If I can steal a quote 'Life isn't about how much times you get knocked down,but how many times you choose to get up & stand tall'
No one is perfect,but I promise you we are worth it
Make a wish,and watch it fly away
I want for you to be more,way more than just okay..
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Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Won't Stop

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I just want to hear some words that are true
After all the lies,your ears don't know what to do
So much heartbreak,your heart doesn't know what to do
And after so much death,it's like life doesn't have a clue
But I have hope,so I stay close & do my best
I've seen a lot of ones before me fall & stay down,and I don't want to be like the rest
Got a couple of little brothers who look up to me
So I realize what I do,could scar them for eternity
Not enough of us,care what our actions do,and how they affect others
In a society where most dads are ghost so it's up to the mothers
If you could change one thing,what would it be
My change would probably be,that people would use more of their heart to see
Because with our eyes,we've built such a delusional vision of what beautiful should be
And if America is the land of the free,why do they lock so much of our people up..and throw away the key?
There has to be a better way to deal with these things,believe me
Not enough people care,and the ones who do are never heard
The news you see on T.V is so controlled now,I wouldn't believe a word
Let me take it back,I'm going in a little too deep
Can't expose it all at once,gotta take it slow & be discreet
Never had to hold a gun or sell drugs on the street
But I can only imagine how it is in a environment where,there is no love for the weak
Sad to say,but there will probably be some murders will never hear about by the end of this week

Not alot of what people think,is ever said
Because before you even get a word out,you've already been read
By how you walk,how you look, how you dress
All these stupid judgement,just leads to so much unneeded stress
We always try to impress the ones who don't deserve our best
Society has us in a fight against each other,how about we change the test
But not all is bad,some is good
You have to remember,you can do all the things..they say you never could
Take that look in the mirror and change I would
To I will
Kill them with kindness,they won't know how to feel
I only want to see tears if they're real
And eye for an eye..and the world goes blind..that's such a bad deal

You have to be the change you want to see
Be willing to fight whatever you believe in ,at any degree
Love yourself & stay true
Don't be afraid to be different, just be you...
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Sunday, July 7, 2013


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The hope to be something better
The heart to be something more
The desire to win
But the strength to still keep your heart pure

The knowledge to know better
The wits to know when to fight back
The defense of hate is love
How I wish everyone knew that

How much until we grow
How much do we pretend we don't know
The reflection in the mirror
Just how much does that really show

Love lost
Love never found
How high are the Gods
And will they ever touch the ground

We push each other far
We want each other close
We send mix messages
We act like we mean the least,but in all honestly we mean the most

What will be next
What does the world have in store
What makes you happy
What can we do more

Holding on to something
or I'm I holding on to nothing
Holding on the past
But I still have hope the future will have something

Leaving anything behind that holds me back
Leaving my heart where I stand
Leaving the rumors to find the truth
Leaving the thoughts of a boy,getting closer to being a man

You mean more than you think
You should see all that you think
You should never stop following your dreams
Rule #1,love yourself by any means

What would you do to prove a point
The real question is that point really worth being proven
Some of us have been tricked into doing anything to be chosen
Doing certain things for the wrong attention
I remember the days when I was school when I actually used to pay attention
Now my mind is somewhere else,in another dimension
Do you believe in love or lust..I hope your pride isn't in question
The answer is sometimes simple,it's simple to over think
They say you only get one chance,so don't blink
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Monday, July 1, 2013


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Sometimes I get the feeling that I just want to runaway
But I learned that I'm not running from anything or anyone except myself so how can I possible get away
I work throughout the night now,so the night is my day
I guess my other poems didn't make it to you,so much for wishing you were okay
It's stupid the games we commit to play
One day we'll both wake up..hopefully one day
And some day soon..the damage will just add up,and the worlds almost doomed
How far is the end?Why do we both pretend?
Why did we end?Getting back together is something I always pretend
I really need to spend some time to unlock my third eye,the insight that would lend
Seeing the world through a different means
Nothing last forever,as least that's the way it seems
Wish we weren't playing on different teams
Could we both ever win?
How much sin can God forgive?
So now I just tattoo the pain,that's probably the closest I can get from hitting a vein
Maybe sometimes we go a little crazy,but crazy in this world seems sane
Back to running away..I just need to escape
Always been real with everyone,now they just erase what we did for each other..and treat me like I was fake
That's cool though,that just adds fuel to the fire
I'm going to make it one day..with or without your desire
Use to be someone you admire/adore...funny enough I'm someone you would kick out your door
But they say,girls only say 'I hate you' to the boys they love
Some days I just sit & wonder,if Heavens the highest point..or is it possible to go higher above
I could never be's just that
How could you allow her to stab me in the back..and not stab back
I'm writing right now,instead of doing my math homework
I'll be having my own place soon,and I'm not even sure how that will work
But I guess it has to be done,These dorms kids believe drinking is the only way to have fun
When did I change?When did I give in
Heard someone I admire say,'In this game,you only lose when you fight back' but I have a feeling
this way I can never win
Maybe I'm too in touch with who I am within
I've always been more soulful than the others
We always created our own little world,while cuddling under the covers
Just so much I can say,years go by,and the feelings choose to stay
Friends...just friends...there has to be another way
Sometimes out of nowhere,my heart & mind hit replay
If only we could go back..the price I would pay

That first verse went too smooth
Damn,what happened must of really put me in a off mood
I have a busy month,I have to stay focused
But I still owe you alot of credit,because before you I was basically hopeless
What you saw in me,I couldn't tell
I was so lost,I probably would've followed the Devil to hell
Just a play on words...Don't take it too serious
But what do you feel now..I'm always so curious
We have this wall built up,so now everything seems mysterious
Knowing,that it's going to be hard to find significant others who will deal with us
Troubled from the beginning,Troubled from the start
I can't paint or anything like you,but I still see love as an art
Sometimes I hate writing,because I give away too much,and get back less than half in return
One day I should just say goodbye,that would be the day I learn
But this is a two way street,all the followers & random visitors deserve a turn
Being loved by the person you love,is something we all yearn
Out of nowhere you just appear
We even use to make plans of you coming here
Where did they all go?
I guess they ran away...something I wish my heart did a long time ago..
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Sunday, June 23, 2013

The Motion

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I think it's time for me sit down again and write
It's like everyday we learn more & now I'm starting to see life in a different light
Think of the stars we would never see if every night was too bright
You still cross my mind day by I'm hoping your alright
The dark has to come,and sometimes its okay to run
Throughout the night..everything seems fun
But as soon as you wake up in the realize what you've done
Some of us are scared of the reality of reality like it was a loaded gun
The bullets are either your dreams or your fears..
But I'm telling you now,if your still in the same spot in a couple of years..when you give your one is going to care
So get out there..and go get whatever it is you want
Read the writings on the wall,even if it's in a different font
With this feeling I feel,I wish the Gods & I could make a deal
Living life day by day,they say only time will heal

In a world of my own most of the time
I think I forgot what I was trying to find
All these different influences keep contradicting my mind
And when I hear your name..I still get chills down my spine
The only way to know you've crossed to actually cross the line
And I think we did...we both said we would forgive..but wheres the love you promised you would always give
Talked about babies,marriage,tiny socks & bibs
A scary thought to know we could get so close just to get so far away..but I guess that's just the motion of the life we live

Anyways enough of the past...lets talk about what lies ahead
Just focus on making others feel good,since after a while they might forget the words you said
But how you made them feel,that feeling will be real
And that's something no one could ever steal

The motion of hope
The motion of love
Keep your heart pure
And your name out the mud
Don't worry what they say
If what they say isn't true
Because in the end..only you can make or break you
And we all need someone to help us get through
So hold onto them..if they are holding onto you
The days will come,when we wont know what to do
But if God brings you to it..he will bring you through
So I pray..I pray he will bring me to you
And if a problem comes..I promise we will figure it out
Because I'm not one to walk in,just to walk out
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Saturday, June 1, 2013

'Another Chapter Starts Here...View At Your Own Risk...'-Ghost
'It's been a while since we've spoken..yes this is true
I don't know what is..or how come this always happens
Life is I guess sometimes we need a sweet distraction
But you mean alot to me..I hope you know this
I've given my time to so many..but maybe it's time I give myself some focus

Thursday, May 16, 2013


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'When you start helping yourself,you start the process of becoming your own inspiration.
How inspiring are you with yourself?
If your not,why?'

I rarely look at you..
Don't take this the wrong way
But sometimes I just don't know know what to do with you..
All the ups & down..we've been through..
And you'll still here...but my reflection still isn't clear
I can see myself looking back at me..but still not sure if I'm truly there
Because a part of me is always gone
No matter how right...I still feel I was always wrong
It's been about 22 years..and we're just starting to get along
who knew it would take this long?

Things don't happen as fast as we like them to
People aren't as truthful as we would like them to
Love never last as long as we need it to
Death comes too fast as we would want it to
Is it possible to have a mouth that only speaks lies..but
still retain an heart that's pure & solely true
I haven't heard what I needed in so long
A true 'I love you'
22 years..I didn't think it would take this long..

We count the days..but why count the time
I just want to give you my heart..but I need you to promise yours will be mine
Even on the darkest days..a light is somewhere to be found
Love is the loudest,when the mouths are silent..and only two heartbeats can make a sound
I'm never here for too long,someone or something just always seems to send me away
And it always happens..the moment, I think love has found a way..
But I just leave it to God's hands..because I know I'm destined to be okay
I can talk for days & days..but when I'm in the mirror..I just don't know what to say
Waiting for that moment..when all the pieces of this puzzle are there..o that would be the day
We are seeing things eye to eye at the moment...please don't look away
You're all I could ever need..please don't go away..~
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Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Holding on to a Dream..

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Holding onto this dream..
But I'm not sure what it really means..
It seems our feelings keep getting lost in between..
Of course we all have eyes..but just how many of us are truly ever seen..
Seen for who we are..not who just they label us to be..
The biggest illusion is that we live in a society that's free..
I just want for everyone to be happy in the end..with a soul that's far from empty..
They will take whatever they can...they will take it all if you let them..
And for the ones who go before me...I will never forget them...
We use this world 'Love' so lightly...and so often..
But the only two times you truly experience love is at the time of birth or at the stare at a coffin..
It's only 2013..
And I'm still holding onto this dream..
Is anything really what it seems..??
I just want to make it with my team..
I just want to find that somebody who hasn't been with everybody..
Who when I see the cons..they see the pros
Who when I see a dead dark flower..they see a beautiful white rose..
Who when I see the dark..they see the light
Who will tell me 'You'll make it' even when I no longer want to fight
Someone to balance the high with the lows..
And to help remind me...that dreams are something we should never let go..
Your dreams are something you should never let go..~

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