Today..

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Sometimes I hate being me...does that feeling ever come over you?

When you either feel alone...or that no one can possibly understand what your going through

or that no one really cares...your tired of searching for 'the one'..over all of these long & lonely years

you feel like your the only one who gives...no body else seems to share

(and all your dreams slowly drift away because of all your self doubt & fears)

The times that past...are the ones you can't get back

Every time you try to move forward...you always seem to look back

You know the right way to go...but somehow fall off track

They say life is about 10% what happens to you...the rest is just how you react..

I want you to know something...secretly,just between me & you

that I know we cant undo...all the bad things they seem to do

but you can be here for me...and I can be here for you

just us two...since most don't understand...it's up to the very few

So we wait...and wait...for that moment to finally come

The day you look in the mirror & smile of who you've become

Since you didn't let all the bad times break you

You were strong from the beginning,that's just how God made you

Now nothing can stop you...your on your way

You figured out the secret...to simply make the best out of every single day

They may doubt your abilities,but if there is a will,there's a way

awake from your dreams & press play

the future isn't promised..so you the gift of the present..today

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Expect...

Realized it takes alot more to give...than it does to take

Been giving all my life...now I'm just wondering will I ever get paid back...how long does it take?

Separated whats real from whats fake

giving my love in hope the other person will change...will never again make that mistake

I missed writing to you...so sorry I've been away

Just that I moved from Texas to Arkansas..and I'm just trying to find my way

So much emotions I've tried putting away

Anyways...hows your life been...I hope you've been ok

Because without you...what's the point of me even writing

We all have those demons that we are constantly fighting

Never let them win...your more than beautiful on the outside

and your like an angel within

All the names & faces I wont ever forget

All the hard times throughout life that makes us stronger that we should never regret

The well being for others is something we should always protect

Always love yourself first...your the most important piece to the puzzle..all the needs for yourself

you should never neglect

Keep moving forward...it just takes that first step

Erase the bad...only the good memories should be kept

Praying for the best.but in my mind I always picture the worse

Let you dreams be your doctor...and ambition be your nurse

Get far, far, away

Do at least one thing that makes you happy...every single day

Nothing more...Nothing Less

Looking for the queen...like this is a game of chess

You were always so special..more special than the rest..

Hate to choose favorites...but your probably the best

So beautiful & smart 

you will make someone happy one day

We all have our time for love..it will & has to come some day

Always so much on my mind...why do you think I write so much

It's not about looks or swag...more importantly about trust

Take your time with things...no need to rush

Set your limits...so you know when enough is enough

Been through enough already..hope your happy days are near

Only have one heart...so be careful who and how much you decide to share

Will always be there in spirit...and the sound of my words are always here...

I wish you the best for whoever it is you decide to take next

These words in this poem are my goodbye's what else did you expect...

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Fever

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Feeling like I have a fever....but I still want to write to you
Always stand on your own two feet..no matter what life puts you through
Every thing's a challenge...Every thing's a game
Some provide Love...While others supply Pain
Hard to be honest in a world filled with lies
Easy to become obsessed since love never really dies
From seeing the world just by looking into your eyes
To my heart dropping just by the sound of your cries
Future is our only hope & fear
Will we be forgotten?Will anyone even care
Love is simply a game of truth & dare
The truth is...we dare to love because sooner or later we know the end is near...

Use to think...but now I just don't know
You love with all your heart...but when its over what do you have to show
Memories you wont ever have a chance to relive again...saying goodbye to love...your such a distant friend
Escaping reality at any and all cost
Trying to follow someone else's dreams...and your bound to get lost
I will get there....and so will you
Nobody can stop you...from doing what your heart says to do
You can make it if you try,every Hello just ends at goodbye
Dreaming of a dream coming true....
Erasing all the old...in preparation for all the new...

I just want to be there when every things right
When the stars are all out and it's like the perfect night
And all our hopes & dreams seem to be plainly in sight...

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The People Nobody Could See...

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We hear only what they chose to tell us...so how much do we really know
Actions speak louder than words..so far what do your actions show
Too often we do nothing in fear of something
When the people at top have nearly all they wish for..while the people at the bottom own close to nothing
What's it gonna take...for humanity to finally become awake
Instead of fighting over money & spilling blood, realize we have human lives at stake
So many opportunities we can create,before its too late
It's only when your dead & gone...do people realize your great..

For a greater good,or a lesser bad
Praying for the children across the world who are forced to kill their own mom & dad
And we think we have things rough...always wondered why people have to go through certain stuff
Like a bomb in our mind...it simply goes away after a certain amount of time
Hold my hand...tell me what you really see
I hope...it's hope...for everyone...including you & me..

It doesn't cost anything to love,It doesn't cost anything to pray
Hate seems to be the easiest thing to have,but it also comes with the highest price to pay

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"Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere"-MLKjr 

so I hope they take him away....

Better Than Me..

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the time moves so fast,we always end up thinking where did it go?
feelings never last too long either,so I'm just getting so used to just letting go
my brother Nathan turned 18 yesterday & I wish him the best
forget those who will forget you & just prepare for whoever's next
I hope you end up doing better than me...
Waiting for you to break the lock on all your potential because I know you got the key
I see alot of similarities between us,which is shocking to see
but you've grown into your own man now,which I know mom is blessed to see
she got her 4 sons & we're all doing so well
we're such a happy family that us being split up so much is something you cant even tell
the little brother who grew up to be as tall as me
fast forwarding to the days when we have our wives's & can finally live life care free
been through things that people only speak about
like being shot at by a bunch of random people,I still wonder why god made y'all take that route
but more importantly I'm just happy y'all managed to find a way out
feeling first life deals alot of losses...but eventually it will pay out
Almost done here in Texas,so hopefully we can meet in Florida again before I leave
you made it this far by yourself,you don't need anyone to get whatever it is you wish to achieve
girls may continue to act stupid & fake,just don't ever lose yourself on the journey of success no matter how
long it may take
funny enough...I still know you write better than me
but like I said before...I hope you end up doing better than me...

the days get worse,only if you don't make them better
life will try and kill all your dreams...but that's only if you let her..

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One In A Million

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Did I Let you go...or were you meant to leave

Happiness could be so simple...we just make it hard to achieve

Like a kid growing up finding out Santa isn't real...

now I just dont know what to believe or how to feel

or who to trust

I guess waiting for love takes too long

so everyone just settles for lust

The things we do,the things we say

makes people label us,and treat us a certain way

But I'll never forget the day,I met this angel...

But now shes gone...so all I can do now...is pray

Tomorrow will be the same thing,you'll wake up and do the same thing

You know brush your teeth,do your hair,get dressed.then head out

But don't walk around like one of these clones,you were made to stand out

Be you,be different....love whatever you think is weird

Always push yourself & when you feel like giving up,

just do it in memory for that one person who actually cared

Alive or not,here or gone...

we all had that one person who never steered us wrong

Could be a family member,a friend or even a pet

What I want you to do today is...

at some point close your eyes in remembrance that you've met

Take a trip down memory lane,revisit some of the memories you kept

It's better to have loved & lost...than to not loved at all..

is something we all need to learn how to accept

Sometimes I feel like...I don't know

Like I'm here for something else...I just need the signs to show

Wish I could help people,somehow make their lives better

Like she did for me...now I can't ever forget her...

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Pieces To The Puzzle

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I keep my eyes closed

because I use my heart to see

since I know that it's pure

and my mind is nothing like it use to be

brainwashed by everything we see

they keep us locked up on this idea that we can really be free

always holding onto the key

the opposite of two

is a lonely me & a lonely you

sometimes the things you don't want to listen to

are the things you need to hear

sometimes the people who are always gone

are the the people you want near

most of the time when we listen to our heart's

we get ripped apart

but to have a happy ending...sometimes you need a broken start

give up on giving up

let go of letting go

open your eyes so life can show

that you dont know everything you think you know

words can heal or words can hurt...

just trying to put all the pieces to the puzzle trying to make things work

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