One In A Million

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Did I Let you go...or were you meant to leave

Happiness could be so simple...we just make it hard to achieve

Like a kid growing up finding out Santa isn't real...

now I just dont know what to believe or how to feel

or who to trust

I guess waiting for love takes too long

so everyone just settles for lust

The things we do,the things we say

makes people label us,and treat us a certain way

But I'll never forget the day,I met this angel...

But now shes gone...so all I can do now...is pray

Tomorrow will be the same thing,you'll wake up and do the same thing

You know brush your teeth,do your hair,get dressed.then head out

But don't walk around like one of these clones,you were made to stand out

Be you,be different....love whatever you think is weird

Always push yourself & when you feel like giving up,

just do it in memory for that one person who actually cared

Alive or not,here or gone...

we all had that one person who never steered us wrong

Could be a family member,a friend or even a pet

What I want you to do today is...

at some point close your eyes in remembrance that you've met

Take a trip down memory lane,revisit some of the memories you kept

It's better to have loved & lost...than to not loved at all..

is something we all need to learn how to accept

Sometimes I feel like...I don't know

Like I'm here for something else...I just need the signs to show

Wish I could help people,somehow make their lives better

Like she did for me...now I can't ever forget her...

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Pieces To The Puzzle

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I keep my eyes closed

because I use my heart to see

since I know that it's pure

and my mind is nothing like it use to be

brainwashed by everything we see

they keep us locked up on this idea that we can really be free

always holding onto the key

the opposite of two

is a lonely me & a lonely you

sometimes the things you don't want to listen to

are the things you need to hear

sometimes the people who are always gone

are the the people you want near

most of the time when we listen to our heart's

we get ripped apart

but to have a happy ending...sometimes you need a broken start

give up on giving up

let go of letting go

open your eyes so life can show

that you dont know everything you think you know

words can heal or words can hurt...

just trying to put all the pieces to the puzzle trying to make things work

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Fear..

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The closer I want us to be,

the more I fade away

And because of that same reason,

now every time we talk...we have less & less to say

Rewinding to the good memories so much,

that I never give the future a chance to play

Thinking life was so full of colors,

when all of a sudden everything turned grey

nothings black & white

don't ever ask if I'm alright

your looking toward today

while I'm just looking toward the night

how much pain can one heart take?

why,only after you die...do people realize your great?

I don't even know what to think

I don't even know what to write

Felt happiness so close to me

I promise she was in sight

Now I don't feel her anymore

where did she go?

Guess she got tired of holding on

so she finally let go

Seems like love& pain is the only things I know

But still somehow,only a smile I seem to show

Only the ones who read what I write ever have a chance to knowing the real me

Because all the destruction & damage left inside is something you cant ever see

The fear of maybe never finding the one

the fear of being in front of someone who said they loved me

but somehow I'm looking down the barrel of a gun

The fear of never getting a chance to say those two words

But the biggest fear of all is the day my cry for help

gets heard but simply gets ignored

since I don't know what I might do

just know I always loved you...

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Happy Valentine's Day

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Love is the topic today...

some of us don't have it,some of us may

but one thing is for certain...

we all eventually get our day'

February 14,a day where some of us are together...
while some of us are alone
which ever the case may be...
just know that whatever you may be feeling...
that you are not alone
The more you've been hurt...
the more you've grown
telling stories about the scars
that can never be shown
because they're in your heart
some where deep into the unknown...

You dream,wish & pray some things could be different...
but nothing stays the same,so somethings always have to be different
they way of life,just how things are meant to go
if you can't hold on forever...I'll be waiting to catch you when you let go
been to the top a couple times,but I feel more safe being below
I still see the light as my friend,but don't see the darkness as my foe...

Your fine just the way you are,
being who you want to be...is what will get you far
far from everyone else who seems to act the same
Love is a drug,while the side effects are just a mix of joy & pain
you always remember  how a person made you feel,even if you don't remember their name
but we all eventually run out of chances...to continue playing this game
before you start thinking of things to say...
I just hope you had a..

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Afterthought...

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what will you do when enough,isn't enough?
when the one you crave doesn't prefer love over lust?
and the people you want to see,feels like you've seen them too much
in a world where people say the world is ending every year
who can you trust?

we all run,until we feel its ok to stop
sometimes we run from the truth...or what was not
since not everything we believe may be true
we all have to face our fears one day,so I just hope
your not running from you....

when your last thought,can be your last thought
you have to out think your own problems,never feel caught
break free,so many miracles you are still able to see
the best things in life are free
just know I will always do whats right for you,
even if its wrong for me

Felt the lows...Now its time to feel the highs
you sit in your room...and you wonder why
why do things come & go...why do we have to say bye
we fight to live...but only live to die
everyone seems to overlook you,but there is always more than meets the eye

Missing people who probably don't deserved to be missed
Love starts with a look,grows with a hug but doesn't always end with love or with a kiss...

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Disturbed Nightmares

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[A contiution of 'Shatterd Dreams..http://soundsofmywords.blogspot.com/2012/02/shatterd-dreams.html]
"Why God!Why" was the last thing she remembered hearing
now she wakes up still in her bed,with the moon barely glaring
was it a dream?was it a nightmare?did something really happen?
dripping from cold sweats,she reaches over & grabs a napkin
wipes away all the moisture,wishes she could go back & see who was hurt,
but she couldn't go back to sleep even if she forced herself
tries her best to look ahead to the future...but all she can see is her disturbed past
she heard 'all good things come to a end'..so how long do bad things last
saw her life flash before her,with her last glance
one more shot to make things right...this may be her last chance

her heartbeat beats slower & slower
the others act like they care...but no one really knows her
Yuna's reasons of today...is stuck in the meanings of tomorrow
She gulps down a drink with some pills...now all remains is a full cup of sorrow

vision getting faded,thoughts of will she ever make it
chance is like advice...it would be nice if you just take it
you think you know,but you have no idea
how it is to live in a house of shattered dreams...and disturbed nightmares

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a good girl stuck in a bad place
time may heal,but it sure as hell cant erase....
story of Yuna...to be contiuned

Shatterd Dreams...

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a girl with some shattered dreams...

it seems she wasn't as happy as she made it seem

she loved these people who could never love her back

so everything she gave them...now she just wishes she could take it all back

her biggest regret,and her only neglect

was not loving her self first,instead of the people she met

so at night...she just wept & wept

but this was something only she knew

a secret she always kept

the moon & the sun were the only two things she ever trusted
since she could always count on them to be there

life wasn't feeling like life,true love was the only thing she lusted

she didn't believe there would be someone who truly cares

one day she decided enough was enough

was tired of dreaming of a world that was soft,but in reality was rough

so she packed her stuff & left

wanted to be anywhere but there,no longer had the fear of death

before she could make it down the street...

she heard a cry for help...from someone who sounded weak

dropped her stuff...and immediately she ran

all she see's is blood & a couple people jump in a unmarked van

she drops to her knees..and starts to cry

then looks up to the sky...

and screams...'Why God....Why!'

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to be continued...The Story of Yuna