Fear..

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The closer I want us to be,

the more I fade away

And because of that same reason,

now every time we talk...we have less & less to say

Rewinding to the good memories so much,

that I never give the future a chance to play

Thinking life was so full of colors,

when all of a sudden everything turned grey

nothings black & white

don't ever ask if I'm alright

your looking toward today

while I'm just looking toward the night

how much pain can one heart take?

why,only after you die...do people realize your great?

I don't even know what to think

I don't even know what to write

Felt happiness so close to me

I promise she was in sight

Now I don't feel her anymore

where did she go?

Guess she got tired of holding on

so she finally let go

Seems like love& pain is the only things I know

But still somehow,only a smile I seem to show

Only the ones who read what I write ever have a chance to knowing the real me

Because all the destruction & damage left inside is something you cant ever see

The fear of maybe never finding the one

the fear of being in front of someone who said they loved me

but somehow I'm looking down the barrel of a gun

The fear of never getting a chance to say those two words

But the biggest fear of all is the day my cry for help

gets heard but simply gets ignored

since I don't know what I might do

just know I always loved you...

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