Gravity

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You bring me up..

But you still hold me down

You're always still there..

Even when no one else is around

Without you,I would probably float away

I guess I need you more than I think..what more can I say

I'm drawn to you..I'm not even sure why

They say 'seeing is believing' ,I guess that can sometimes be a lie

We don't know what we have until it's gone

Taking you for granted for so long,why is it so easy to do wrong

When will you finally let me go..

I'm not sure if that's really an answer I really want to know

The day you disappear,my entire world will change

I guess when that happens..we will finally understand the word strange

You're one of the greatest things that has happened to me..

I would say your name..but I'd rather mouth it silently

Just want to continue seeing you,move along the journey of life..happily 

I just want to say thank you,thank you for everything

You always gave me so much,even when I didn't give back anything

We lose

But we also gain

We feel pleasure

But we also feel pain

We all live to die

But still some aren't treated the same

We love & we hurt

But in the end will it all be worth?

We give & we take

But at the end of day..decisions are only ours to make 

We may fail

But it's important to try

We cry & we smile

But don't worry about a thing,great thing sometimes take a while

We say hello & we say goodbye

But there isn't a moment,when I wouldn't want to see your beauty in front of my eye

We all have to play this game

But we sometimes lose

Not even gravity can hold you back..

Your destiny is yours to choose..

So be something great

Not matter what they say..it's never too late

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Bed Peace

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Finding peace within ourselves is sometimes the hardest thing to find

We all have those nights where we can't sleep because thoughts keep running through our mind

No heartbreak last forever

Things might break,but that's only for better things to come together

Today might suck,but tomorrow will be better

Would tattoo the entire alphabet for you,yeah every letter

And now things are so strange,the miscommunications are multiplying  

I just want for us to be on the same page

Why won't anyone else express how they really feel

I'm slowly learning how to love myself,maybe now I can heal

Stop caring what people think..

To be honest..most people don't think

Be who you want to be,love what you want to love

Kiss in the rain,play in the mud

Life is about the simple things,we sometimes expect too much

Take your time to appreciate the little things,why are we always in a rush

Likes are cool,but you know what's better

A hug or a gentle touch

So I hope this is touching you..

I always try to run away..but I know that's not the right thing to do

So I'll embrace all the love & the hurt

We're all different, but sometimes the tiny bit of difference can make things work

Only you can say what's your true worth

I only want you to have happy tears,like the moment of a babies birth

Before I end this poem,I just want to say I hope you find peace

We all have something special inside us,it just take sometime to release 

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Gone

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And it's like only this can bring me to a place where I'm calm

A safe haven where no one can see all that I did wrong

A place where I feel I finally belong

The only question I ask myself..is why did it take this long

Tomorrow never comes,it always slips away

Sometimes I wonder if certain people truly believe in the things they say

It really doesn't mean much anyway.. unless they're promoting love or a better way

Been told too many times..to just relax..everything will be okay

Trying to stay away from the norm

They only teach us what they want us to learn

It's like our hearts were meant to be torn

The ones who play with fire eventually get addicted to the burn

And I'm gone..So sorry I'm gone 

In my dreams..you always come along

In a weak society where only the ones with money & power are strong

Looking forward to the day,when the ones at the top are finally gone

I'm going to make some mistakes along the way so don't hate me

Wondering if God took more or less time to create me

How far am I away from marriage & a baby

On this pursuit to happiness..hoping I get there safely

They don't understand..and the probably never will

Most of them don't want anything to change,the believe it's okay to lie & kill

And the doctor's now a days only want to treat you with a shot or a pill

Little do they know,the more artificial things will put in our body..the more we get ill

So much things to change,just so little time

I'm learning to remove all the restrictions that were placed upon my mind

They say everyday there is a secret sign

Leave tomorrow in the future and the past all behind

Sometimes I think she's too good to be true

Learned from the past I'm better off locking up my heart & throwing away the key too

I can't live thinking of what if,so this time that's something I won't do

Seen a lot who are just reckless with their bodies,but I know they're some worthy few

So this goes out to you..

Miserable people will do anything to destroy a good thing

It has nothing to do with you..but who they are within

Some are just uncomfortable in their own skin

Some just belittle others as a sick way to fit in

But what they don't know is in the end they won't win

Because when they look in the mirror,their light inside will be so thin

They won't shine as bright as you

You don't know what you got until it's gone,just thought I should remind you.,.

And I never was good with saying goodbyes

Hate looking people in the eyes

The only ones who know,are the ones who try

Live your life in a way,that you will have no regrets..when it's time to say goodbye..

Goodbye.

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Too Much

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And it always seems like I think about it too much

It made sense that the further I moved away,the more we would lose touch

I got family that I don't hear from,and they don't hear from me

It's like all the love was ripped away from me & my family

We have all these mediums of contact,but none of it really helps

Hate to say it,but the next time we will probably meet will be at a funeral and we won't have anyone to blame but ourselves

My head is always spinning,it's like my thoughts never stop

It feels like I have to carry all the dead weight by myself,without a helping hand it's all just gonna drop

You will probably hear from me less & less

No matter how perfect I try to paint my world,it just always end up in this beautiful mess

It's like there isn't a way to avoid all this stress

I've lost contact with almost all of my closest friends…now a days..I just feel like whose next?

I don't really think the grass in greener on the other side

It's just that sometimes anything it better than being on this side

Tired of hiding all my feelings that are probably in my best interest to hide

I barely ever talk about it anymore..but October is the month my best friend committed suicide 

It's so crazy to think he would be the same age of me

Why didn't he have anything to say to me?

Maybe I was too busy with my others friends,that I failed to see

Now that's one of the things I always have to live with..one of the biggest pains to me

I hate being here,and I hate being there..I feel like I hate being everywhere 

Most of the time I want to disappear,but care too much about the ones that care

After a while we start to see life in a different light..

It seems the news talks more about what's going wrong,than what we can do right
Part of the military but still, some of the battles at home are the hardest to fight..

What do you know about not being able to sleep at night

So far away from home,it would be at least an 8 or 9 hour flight

I just pray that if something ever goes wrong,I will make it home in time to look you in the eyes and tell you everything will be alright

I think about it too much..because I feel like some think about it too less

I don't feel like I signed up for this

I just want to hold you close & give you kiss

But I'm always at work,missing all the important moments someone dear to your heart shouldn't miss

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I'm so sorry this happens so much

I hope at the end of it all,there is still us.

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Love In The Sky

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This world's not for us,it's not what it seems
What we've been promised is death & broken dreams
And maybe a little bit of happiness in between
But where does a king look,when searching for his queen
The good ones are hard to find
Because now we only tend to see with our eyes since it's lust that occupies our minds
We say we want love,but what do we do
Ignore the ones who care, and continue chase the ones who if the tables were turned,wouldn't chase after you
Will we find our love in the sky?
What about all the promises to never say goodbye?
When will all these tears dry?
Why can't I stop asking why? Why
Didn't things work out,
I guess it wasn't meant to be
No matter how hard we try,
There is no way of deleting history
Only way is to cover it up with lies
Which only prolongs the cries

And the teary eyes
I want to take you higher,higher than the birds can fly
I want to take you higher,higher than where the angels go after we die
I want to take you higher,higher than high
Girl,we can do anything..as long as our hearts are both willing to try
First we need to learn how to dream
Reality can be mean
We all try to emulate someone of something which we see on the tv or computer screen
When did we lose the feeling of us?
When did life lose its rush?
When did we forget how to touch?
When did my enough not become enough?
Now I'm falling,falling from the sky
Love was my drug & I'm no longer high
Looking down below,I have no one to catch me
Beacause I pushed everyone away,don't even ask me
Why or who,or even how I did
I've just always felt alone,ever since I was a kid
But this isn't about me,it's about us
The easiest thing to break,but the hardiest thing to build..is trust
No love lost.No love found..so maybe sometimes losing is a must
This world's is for us,it's what it seems
What we've been promised is life & a chance to chase our dreams

So dream girl, dream
Find your happiness at any extreme
And we will find our love in the sky
Even if that means in the heavens,after our souls & the earth are no longer tied~

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Centipede

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I would hate me too,if you did to me what I did to you
Trying to figure out these life lessons man,but I really don't have a clue
They love the fake smiles, but I'd rather cry to show you what I feel is true
If I could go back,the things I would do
I just continue to go day by day,
Still looking for a way, to truly get away
But you were my getaway,
we use to talk everyday
Now you cross my mind,but I don't know what to say
I let everything else get in the way
I thought playing games were suppose to be easy to play
But I can't and I won't
If your heart's not in it then don't
The pressure leaves,but it always grows back
I always tell my mom I'll call her the next day but I never call back
I guess I'm just trying to grow
If I don't do it alone,how else will I know
Got alot of pride,so I hate asking for help
But don't mind helping others,
 I just pray,that if I don't make it God will look after my mom & little brothers
That's all I ever had,that's all I really know
I put my heart in these poems,because on a day to day basis This side to me isn't what I really show
I try to bring others up,instead of bringing them down
After my first friend killed himself,I promised to fix any frown
Listen to your heart,that's the most important sound
And I'm always here,even if I'm not physically around..

They'll hate you,until they love you,then they'll hate you again
Said bye to alot of people,I wonder if it's my cards to ever see them again
Was so attached,all you had to say was when
And I was there,never get it confused girl,I will always care
I'm not sure if perfect exists,but we could of been a perfect pair
My dad is trying to connect,but I don't want to reconnect
 No, I 'm not bitter,I just feel some things are easier to forget
Don't be like the others,and neglect the ones you should protect
I guess this is how life is,are you willing to try and change it or just be one of those people who don't try & accept
And we're just trying to live out our dreams at any means
Not everything is what it seems
You live & you learn,like it or not,
It's burn or get burned
I hate how life's just turned,into how much you can earn
Instead of how much you can love or learn
Do you still read...for some reason I still believe
I need to know you haven't forgot
You should know who I am,and what I'm not
Made a mistake a got to live with forever
All good things come to a end,but never say never
What's the perfect person if its not the perfect time
That's probably one of my favorite lines
That,and when a heart breaks,it don't break even
Is karma about letting go,or getting even

In my world, our story never ends
As much as we pretend
We either go from friends to enemies or enemies to friends
We all believe in different things..
But if we can't believe in each other..
What do we really believe in.
I hope love is still something you believe in
Don't ever give up
If it doesn't happen now,then it has to happen soon
Just erase all the negativity so love will have room
Use your smile to change the world,don't allow the world to change your smile
Your dreams will come true,it just sometimes takes a while
Before I go, there's something you should know
I just had to go,even if I had no where to go
My own thoughts haunt me before I go to sleep
It takes a strong heart to continue to love, and it's hate that makes a heart weak
And we don't need words to speak
What we shared...will always be unique

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More Than Okay..

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Respecting the moment,respecting the time
The night is quiet,but when you're alone at night,a million thoughts run through your mind
If there was one line,just one line
To make that one thing yours,To make that one thing mine
Would you say it?or lose your chance to a different time
Sometimes I watch the sky,just searching for a sign
You have to take a moment,you have to enjoy what you have,life without enjoyment should be crime
It's like they locked me up & threw away the key,
I don't think I've ever seen such a soul so beautifully~
I can't play the piano,I can't play the harp
But I can give you my heart & promise to always play my part
Trying to save everything I can,I have a plan like Noah's Ark
But somethings can't be saved,I now see people who I use to wave
To,but nothing last forever,yes this is true
So now we just turn away
And simply just say 'Hey'
How do some people make it throughout the day
How do they sleep at night
But I can't judge, I'm no more wrong...than I am right
Never have I flown a kite
But I can imagine what it feels like
A stranger is just a friend you haven't met yet
And a soul mate is just a stranger you haven't  noticed yet
The first step is always the biggest step
Maybe they can't handle a mile in your shoes
In this game of love,where are the rules
And who wrote them
If someone is falling for you,should you do what is polite & hold them
Or let them fall,into a never ending fall
You lose that sense of fear,once you feel you've experienced it all
Some girls say all men are the same,and some men think all girls are crazy,but who ever said to try them all
Once you find your other half,the world will start to feel small
If I can steal a quote 'Life isn't about how much times you get knocked down,but how many times you choose to get up & stand tall'
No one is perfect,but I promise you we are worth it
Make a wish,and watch it fly away
I want for you to be more,way more than just okay..

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