Hate Sleeping Alone

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Gave my heart away...and it seems to be to the wrong one,
Now I see why it's better just chill with you close circle when your trying to have fun,
Since love's no fun....it's a serious game,
You either win or lose...no retry's here... no trying again,
So I scarficied my name....and I scarficed my time,
Feels like my life is moving forward toward greater things...but I somehow getting left behind,
So how does it feel...are you happy now??
Transferred my lifestyle from civilan to military...and bascially all everyone can say is 'wow'

So what I learn??....It's hard to tell
That maybe this world is filled with wanna be angels...but they're really sent from hell
Locking my heart up....and throwing away the key
Now whoever wants it I guess...will have to bring it to me
And maybe that's the key...to see when you walk away ....who follows
Or who will fill your emptiness...when your life feels hollow
I'm half empty or half full...Happiness looking like a wolf in sheep's clothing..so I'm scared to see whats underneath the wool
All this has as happened & I still dont understand...Love makes you feel like a little boy again....when your trying to be a man
No longer up to me...so I leave it in God's Hand....


I'll probably hate myself some more after releasing this poem,
Since it allows everyone to read....what I'm feeling inside from all the way back home,
But I cant hold back when I write...It just all comes through
I hate sleeping alone.....but what's even worse is I hate sleeping without you....

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Sure Thing

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So here we are......in a place I cant describe
where one heart hears the other one knocking so the first heart decides to hide
but you cant hide forever....all things come to light
been having alot of rainy days....but everything we be alright
so look outside the window and tell me what you see
life promised me a sure thing...so I wonder what that will be
will I become rich?famous?or just an undiscovered soul
I just driving on the highway to heaven....trying to skip the toll
because I've given so much to people....almost feels like there is nothing left
everyday has its meaning....so I guess there must be something left....

I wish you could hear the words my heart has to say...
Even if when we talk......our conversation's don't always end the right way
Not point of simply casting away our hope,and trying to dash faith away
Nothing set in stone...but you have my word.... in my thoughts you will forever stay....

Love me while I'm here....then go ahead & hate me when I'm gone
Sorry for the wait....never expected things to take so long
The sun's coming out....we can make it a beautiful day
Happy Thanksgiving...I hope you all just take a little moment to pray
Be thankful for what you have.....and even for what you've lost
Since sometimes it takes losing something very precious...to help us realize we've been lost
Lost in sin,Lost in Hate,Lost in Love....One day we'll all sit among the stars....No, we'll sit high, high above

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One this day everyone....take a close note to the ones who try to make you laugh & smile everyday. Remember the ones who only wanted/wants the best for you....Because those are the ones who actually care....If your close to a loved one or friend...hug them, write them a note...do something to let them know you care...Because those of us who are the military...give up holidays like this...so you can live without fear....One sure thing before I go....The world may not be a perfect place...But never ever.....let go
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Doing It Wrong

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Sometimes I wish it would just happen already...and happen fast
because who I'm i kidding...I'm I gonna be able to last??
as I start to put some future thought in my past
you had my heart covered up....and you used your lies as the mask
'What I'm doing wrong'you ask... I reply...look within yourself for the answer...that's not something you should ask....

Too much things I've lost,but yet still so much I have gained,
I've lost the time I had with you,but gained a little release of pain,
but now when we get married,it will be a nice private island where you can only get there by plane,
and its not about money,its about love....and it looks like out of all the guys,I'm the only one whose paying,
so I spend and spend my love on you until there is nothing left,besides...without love in the world...what really do we have left?
when I hear your name,I see us spinning in my mind...and I will treat you like your in the military...make sure your never left behind.
so I keep you on my time,so your always on my watch,
and your beautiful is my favorite sight,so how could i help not to watch
but beauty will fade,so that's why I love you for who you are
and I'm constantly on the move...so I hope you can feel my love from afar
similar to how we can never be close,but yet see the the brightness from a star
which is exactly what you are..........*a star

I really don't know whats going to happen next,
Some of us will find that new love...while some of us just stay missing our ex
Stuck in our own little world looking to find that person who we think is best
Which will never happen...because it has nothing to do with your eyes....you have to feel it in your chest
So take a deep breath,close your eyes and start to think,
You know you found the one when silence is in the room,but yet your souls start to sync
So don't unplug our love....that's the wrong thing to do
They ask me what I believe in...but I never answer...I just turn and look at you.....

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Gone Until Another Day

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So much left for me to say,So much left for me to do,

So before we say our goodbye's...I wanted to leave this poem for you...

You can always make it,You just have to be strong,

Since even when your right,people would like to make you feel like your wrong,

Without the rain,or the pain...all the sunny day's & happiness wouldn't feel the same,

When your stuck in the struggle,just remember to stay humble,please always think twice...and try to stay out of trouble,
Don't let anyone confuse you,or drag you down the wrong way,
Keep your head up,and make the best of everyday,
I know you will be ok...don't ask me why,
God puts us to the test,and all you have to do is try,
I have faith in you,and all that you do,
Be all you can be....& always stay true....to you
It will be a couple of weeks,but I will be back
Just know the image of your smile,always was something that kept me on track
Your something I thought I would of never knew,something so true
Now when I'm away I always want to be right next to you,
When I'm Gone....I Wish I Could Be Right Next To You.


I hope I made you feel safe....like you always had a place
that we could escape to the stars....and we didn't even need space
Everything will always work out,no need for any doubt
I will give you what you need,just tell me the amount,
Because what we have is timeless...and if I went looking I would be sure to find less
Once you have the best....you can only find 2nd best
So I let my heart do all the seeing and I put my eyes to rest,
I bet blind people can see beyond when we can,isn't our life a mess?
Try to stay away from the negative and the bad,the people who are 2 faced & who always make you sad,
Life is nothing but a never-ending circle unless you try to break the chain,
I had a friend name Kevin....and after he took his own life...my life was never the same...
Now when your away,I always want to be right next to you,
When Your In Heaven,I Wish I Could Be Right Next To You.


Never give up,constantly hold on
Your heart plays the beat,to someone's favorite song,
Your eye's show the way to a paradise they have never seen,
And when they fall asleep....your the only thing they will ever dream,

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Dear You

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'A Powerful Message...Or Maybe A Powerful Poem...Whatever It Is...These Are My Thoughts...While Listening To The Zone'

So I'm here thinking about you,
Seems like our days talking are almost through,
Wishing I was dreaming,but I woke up into a nightmare
Worst feeling in the world to not see you right here....

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who sees what you see?
who cares when you care?
who fills that emptiness,when you feel no love near........

one in a million,or a million in one
its fun when we all start,but don't forget what happens when its all said & done
some one has to win,someone has to lose,
one must feel the heartbreak...but neither one leaves without a bruise
so who do you choose?
or is he already chosen....you can have all the hearts in the world...but you would of wasted your love unless one was golden,

Don't waste your time thinking of him,no point of even talking to her
Constantly thinking of building a better & brighter future,so the darkness in the past is now just a blur
I just hope you remember one thing.....Love is about a bond.....and marriage isn't about a ring...

This is just a free-write,but I hope it helps you see right,you cant expect tomorrow to be bright,if you give your self to darkness every time you feel night,Be proud of what you do,take confidence in what you say,and make the sun of your clouds....never be gray,May the stars always twinkle,and your wishes all come true,just don't forget.....to always be you...yeah girl,just always be you....xo

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In My Zone

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So....I'm sitting here in my zone,
Almost time for me to go,so I slowly remove myself from the throne,
Looking at the pieces to our puzzle realized you did it all on your own,
You feel safe but then everythings broken like a earthquake hitting your own home,
A place I made for myself,Another place I set for you,
It's moments like this when all the time is running out,
so we sometimes forget the correct things to do,
I take a deep breath....& do my best to close my eyes,
But I cant seem to dream,since your the best....and I hope you realize,
Everything you did.....Everything you done,
Calling you the first time was hard for me,but saying goodbye is never fun,
Just the sound of your voice,always made everything better...
As I fast forward to basic training,I'm slowly awaiting your letter,
You were always so much trouble,You were always so rude,
Something about that sweet attitude that always kept me glued,
I wish we could lay together forever.....and never ever move,
Since when we're together...the mood always starts to improve,
I would die for you....just so I can prove,
That once were in my zone...even death is something you can elude,
So if you have something to say ...please say something before I go....Even if I don't want to say yes...
I will never say no..
All these people I'm forced to let go....teaches me life is full with problems & that is all I know,
I hope when I see you again...things will still feel the same,

Looks like my heart's been scribbled over....with writing of different fonts of your name,

Which helps dilutes the pain,without love or music....I would of never stayed sane,

"If you love something,set it free, if it come back it's yours,if it doesn't,it never was"I just keep replaying  that saying..

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Thank You.

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As my thoughts begin to sink in,and I begin to write
I think about all the people I've ever met & bonded with over my life
Not going to say all the names because that would take forever
Just want you to know that if we ever shared a smile....That I will remember it forever
Maybe I'm far away...or maybe I'm close to you
But there is one thing I hope that always remains true...
That you have all the happiness in the world & you complete everything you ever set your mind to
Maybe we talk once in a while....or we talk every day
Just know if your ever lost....you can always walk my way
Maybe we'll grow old...or maybe we'll die young
Just make sure you cherish everyday like its your last....be safe & have fun
Love always shines....that's how I'll find you

So I took the time to write this poem 'Thank You',just to always remind you...

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