Jet Lag

The load is getting heavy,the pressure is becoming strong
The more I try and do right,the more things start to feel wrong
I still continue to follow that little voice thats says 'no matter what always be true'
But it's hard in a world when they try to always dominate & control you
Truth is I don't know where I belong,who cares anyways....
I'll just pretend I'm happy and go along
So all I see now is fake smile's with no real tears
Only thing to fear,is fear itself,so please eliminate those fears
Never understood why everyone always says "Don't walk towards the light"
The light is suppose to save us...so shouldn't everything be alright?
Just making a point,since if there is a Heaven...thats where I wanna go
And if their really is a Satan & Hell....thats something I hope I never have to know
Once you know all good...you wont have to worry about turning bad
Once your happy with yourself...little things can no longer make you sad
And I had a strong enough Mother so her raising me well, didn't make me miss my dad
The thoughts of who I wanted to be are starting to fade away like the oldest fad
Beginning to bottle up all my demons and throw them in a bag
Heading to the airport but I don't have a flight,I just wanna leave this luggage somewhere,maybe try and get a tag
Send all this negative stuff in the air.......
but wait this doesn't sound right.....must of been having a nightmare....my mind is always in the clouds on a plane of its own so please excuse me....lets just blame the jet lag

Lost for Words

Two sides of war like the two sides of love
one pretty & one ugly
Thought you would always be mine
why did they have to take you from me
Nothing makes sense,Nothing ever does
Love is suppose to start with a smile,grow with a kiss but not end with a tear & hug
But nothing could of predicted this heavy rainy storm,not even the weather bug
So that bugs me,thats I couldn't see,these turn of events spiral into a catastrophe
And there's is no me if there's is no you
Now I'm just stuck here with I.......and I don't know what to do

And it's so amazing how thoughts can generate from our brain
but for some reasons sometimes become locked in,since the fear of showing the world is suddenly a gigantic restrain
So we suddenly just retain all our natural impulses and begin to mimc others like their DNA runs throughout our vein
And I just wish all that self inflicted pain
would go away,since being happy in your own skin could be the most valuable procession a person could ever attain

Last but not least......Lost for words,But never out of heart

And we need to be careful,since the very same things that build us up....could be the very same reason why everything falls apart...</3

Mr.Right

So where should we start?

From a unfinished beginning or a broken heart?

Since we have a lot to learn....but even more to give

Tired of just being alive,you just  need to learn how to live

Millions of cars.....millions of people

Too much too add & subtract,so none of us will ever equal

Sad to say,but happy to admit

The only reason most of us keep pushing forward,is so we don't look like the only failure who quit

Marriage is suppose to be forever......forever never comes

If you want to catch the dreams you're chasing....the only option you have is to run

So just keep running and reach for the stars...

They might laugh at you now,but what will they say when the world is ours?

Matter of fact it doesn't matter what say

Some people just like to hear themselves speak...even when they have nothing constructive to say

I see the brightness in you......I can see the light
When I hear your voice or see your face,things get more bright
And even when your wrong,somehow I still admit your right
But I guess me seeing you happier is such a more beautiful sight
A one that makes me feel comfortable throughout the day and able to go to sleep at night

And in my dreams I'm perfect.....but in reality could I ever be Mr.Right?

Set It Free

Im stuck inside a daze,stressing,but my family & friends say don't worry...its only a transitional phase,
from high school to college,from boy to man,
its like I know what I want to do with my life,but this world make everything so fuzzy & hard to understand.
Lost without a map,Late without the time,
but no point of beating ourselves up,since it takes a while for everything & everyone to reach their prime,
when we reach it,we wont want to let it go,and we all know how things go,everything all smiles in front of the curtains,but does anybody care what happens after the show?
Think about it for a moment....because I can see it inside you...
I know you.....you know....

Everything is so red,white & blue,but say our proud country declared war on your homeland....what are you suppose to do?Fight for the land of the free,but I know becoming a traitor is something you don't want to be...Any choice is a hard to make,when you don't want to create a mistake,and anybody can say they are real....but does anyone body have the guts to admit they are fake?

Who believes in love at first sight?And in happy endings?
Love can sometimes confuse the message that the lover is sending...
The thought of you .......thinking about me
Influences the mindset
"That if you love something..........it may be best to set it free

Dream,Love & Hope

Had this dream right...that I was flying

everything was so dreamy right....but I heard some crying

So I searched and searched....to try & see who it was

Gotta try and see whats the matter...thats what a real angel does

but when I saw who was crying....it was nobody...just me

then I start to think...that couldn't...could it be?

I take it back.....if I could I would take it back

no matter what I do I move 10 steps forward....and 100 steps back

back to where I don't want to go...forwards what I want to see

emotions take control of me,lock up my thoughts...and throw the key

no way to be free now...they are all gone....

seems like my life is on repeat....on the same song

only the words are changing.....the chorus is too

out of 100% what you believe....0% can be true

so everything falling apart...and you feel your through

the dark cloud is always stuck above you....like it raining glue

but the sun will come....and clear the way

99% of us don't try our best...and 0% of that is ok...

At a lost of words......with all these feelings

I see the same old endings....with new beginnings

Another chance for love.....Another chance for pain

But no love lost means no love found...so maybe a risk is worth the gain

And maybe with you I.... can erase my pain

So I can stop thinking about life so much...since maybe it's not to blame

Problems heavy on my heart....trying not to strain 

What the point of playing...if you cant win the game

You win.......And I lose

Matter of fact....we both lose

Their's no ties...when it comes to love

Just two people getting addicted.....like we hooked on drugs

So this withdraw is killing me.....yeah i'm numb

Thinking the best of people all the time...you can call that dumb

Just want this thing called happiness...since I haven't seen none

Ink....

Today is everlasting....
Tomorrow we never see...
Hate follows us around...
Love is whatever it wants to be....
Friends leave...and some stay
Does anything last forever?
Everybody talks.....but what are we all trying to say?

Hear the voice...
it is trying to speak to you....
Share your voice....
So someone can speak to you...
Believe in your dreams...
Never let them vanish...
With no goals or wants...
Your future could end in anguish ....

Walk or crawl....
Speed up or slow down...
Climb over the highest mountain in your life....
And make sure you give it your all...
Life is a journey...and a lot of things take place
don't worry about the clock.....you can set your own pace

Shortcuts only lead to dead ends....
Beginnings don't last too long since they eventually find a end....
You are the ink to my world...
But what will I do when I can't find my pen...

Thought of you

So, where do I begin?

everything started out so wonderful between us,you were my best friend

but that once in a life-time bond seems to vanish now & I don't want it to end

So should I keep pulling on this never ending rope?

Or will it be safer to cut all ties.....and along that all our future hope?

Never doubted us....only doubted me

But when your in so deep...the deepness is all you see

Nothing remains clear....your heart & mind fight a losing battle

We means which ever side wins...leaves part of you in despair

But I still care......which seems to be my mistake

I guess only the realest things in life....always seems to break

While the fake things seems to last forever......or at least thats what they think

Might as well threw my emotions for a spin....in the washer & dryer because more & more it gets worn out & only seems to shrink

Lord as my witness,I always did my best

Still remember my graduation...you were that pretty yellow dress

And now every thing a mess...are we over forever.....

or are we just taking a little time out....Guess I'll call this poem 'Recess'

Life is now back in session....Told my self a million times to learn my lesson

But I never seem too...why only after we have heard all the lies....things start to seem true

The distance between us grows....and grows.....but somehow