Trust Issues...

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If you have never been in the dark,then how would you know to appreciate light?

And if anything hasn't gone wrong....how would you know when they're right?

I don't want to be heartless....I just wish I knew how to use my heart less,
because through the structure of things,I've ended up with this heart mess...
You can never completely fix something once it's been broken,
But you will never know whats behind that closed door,if you don't use your courage to make it open,
Any step forward,Is a step in the right direction,
And we are able to make mistakes in life,so we can show ourselves that we are strong enough to correct them,
Never let anyone hold you down...and as God as my witness I promise to never let you drown,
Because sometimes it feels like the rain is pouring down and it's never going to stop,
Or like your always stuck between a hard place & a rock,
You will get out that hard place eventually....believe in yourself to find the key,
Then everything will open.....maybe you just need to look harder because I promise you the signs are showing...

I can see myself not trusting myself,because I followed my heart and look where I got myself,

A place where is broken and so low, I do my best to hide it in person,but in my poems they always show,

As I look at all these pictures and start to miss all the people I've ever met,Their is a part of me that is full of regret,So how I'm suppose to move forward?When I don't know where is the best place to take my next step?

I feel like we are here for one reason and that is to love...Love in silence or Love in words either way as long as you both feel it...the important thing is your love is being heard,

Your the only one...since I don't trust these....

Singing from the heart,so tell me if you hear me,

I can see people nearby but still cant feel anyone near me,

Sometimes I sit & wonder whats it going to take to make all our dreams come true,

then the answer fell from the sky...it isn't much....just takes you to believe in you,

So thats what I hope you do,because me believing in you is nothing new,

Looking for some things,and I think that I can find them in you

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Marvin's Room

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 Times moving fast,life's moving slow

wish there was a safe place,for me to let all this go....

I remembered everything I was trying to forget,

Feeling like I was almost there...guess not yet...

The bad choices seem to over shadow the good ones I make,

Thankfully I always have my real friends who always outnumber the fake,

So hard to find that one person who can be real with you,

Since even when you find them,look at all the difficulties the world decides to put you through,

When you give someone everything,you have to be careful since you can be left with nothing...

The nights start feeling uneasy...the restless times seem to never end,

I keep telling myself I'm happy...but whats the point of me trying to pretend,

Holding on to something that maybe we should of let go,but its worth the chance because when its all said and done in the end we may never know,

A place where two hearts have never been,feeling like we have been in heaven even though we decide to live in sin,

They say what they want....they can never know the real you & I,bounced back from the lowest of lows...to the highest of highs,

Nothing worse then the sound of a goodbye....

Or hearing that sorry, your too much of a nice guy

Nothing good about saying bye to one you love so it's more like a bad-bye...

Or knowing that she will probably end up with the wrong guy....

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Help From Above

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The hopes,the wishes...The love,the hate...The highs,the lows...The dark,the light,
A moment where we can peacefully sleep forever,or where we just constantly keep ourselves up at night..

The loud,the quiet....The sad,the happy....The sometimes,the always,...The rich,the poor,
I say it all the time,we are constantly in battle with each other or ourselves...so everyday what are you standing/fighting for?

A marriage,a divorce...A fall,a climb...A room full of clocks,a place of timeless time,
We all have a purpose...A meaning...or at least a story to tell,so just always keep that in mind

A opening,a closing...A wrong,a right...A sun,a moon...A beginning,a end,
Even if you had all the love,money & objects in the world....what would you do with it then?

Too much pain,not enough joy...Too much talk,not enough action...Too much murders,not enough successful births,
They say 'don't worry about things too much,your young,you have your whole life ahead of you ' but what about for the little ones who are suffering right now...how does that work?

Too much time,not enough done...Too much power,not enough help...Too much fear,not enough love,

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I cant do this alone anymore...so I gaze into the stars,with my current state of mind...and hope...,I receive some help from above
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Love Never Dies....Only People Do

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Heard it a thousand times......

Seen it a million ways...

So many hearts left damaged...

In the game of love we play....

No one can ever win...

So in the end we all lose...

Happiness can come as one...

But it's much better when it arrives in two's..

The sky is blue...

The night is black...

Only make sense to keep pushing forward....

No point of looking back...

So much to hold on to...

Even more to let go...

When you close your eyes & search your heart...

I wonder what type of visions,your love will show..

The only thing worth chasing...

Is simply your dreams...

If your chasing love...

Sorry to say...but most likely it will out run you by any means...

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'We all only have a limited time to achieve what ever it is we want...so get out there & get it'

Dreams Money Can Buy

I guess this is how happiness is suppose to feel,When everybody fake around you no longer feels real...
My heart's made up,but my mind always stay confused......always wanting to win..but at the same time feeling I'm destined to lose...

So pick & choose....pick & choose

you can either help some one reach their dream....or just watch them fail & lose

What do you get when you have a heart of gold?You have people trying to take it from you...but my heart could never be sold..

Wonder if I do this...will anyone ever look at me the same,

But then again why should it matter if the only thing people know about me for sure...is simply my name,

A lot of tears left inside,A lot of moments I try to hide,But everything will be ok as long as I have love & god always on my side,
I see too much pain,and I get mad at myself when I cant fix it all,Because in this big mad world...any support at all will help....even if it's small,
I can write my soul out & even give all my love away...But I guess nothing will change the way some people think...guess their minds must be thinking the other way,
Time flies, while waiting for a better day.....ignoring the words you don't want to hear,just because your scared of all the correct thing I might have to say,
Thats nothing but the truth...a lot of us may have the bullets...but how many of us are really willing to shoot.

Not talking about violence,since thats not what I'm about...
Just a lot of people 'talk' and their 'actions'... for some reason never have an equal amount..
I guess they're some Dreams Money Can Buy...heard that from Drake's word of mouth

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Missing..By Kayla Bolton

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Everyday I face the day with an open heart,

I'm never disappointed, but I feel like I'm missing something, like an empty cart

I wanted you to be there, I pleaded and it didn't seem to matter

I can't take it; I'm much too lonely and the will didn't seem right

Thinking about it, it hits me and I cry alone at night

Then his words echoe and I know who is real

It doesn't seem like a big deal anymore, and I can control how I feel

I've spent a life time to understand myself, but still I am confused

Every other day you cross my mind and so much reminds me of you

I go on and laugh without you there and I have to remind myself of the things I got to do

I always asked how, but I never asked why

You never gave me answers, you didn't even give it a try

You left me, gave me a heartache, left me to mourn

I stand strong, but my soul feeling torn

How could you do it? I will never understand

Always angry, always aggrevated

Nobody really got along, and we grew apart

The distance was unbelievable,

They were there to pick me up, and I couldn't believe what I'd been missing out

My hope restored and my heart feeling lighter, taking another route

I'm sorry you won't be by my side, I'll be marching on

I'm so happy and it hasn't ever felt wrong

There was many wars, and I'm sorry for the things I'm not

The plans that we made, it wasn't the water we wanted to wade

I'm glad though, 'cause I'd rather take another step without you

I'll always miss you, but we've both got things to do

And my scars will always show and I'll smile when I look back on them

You weren't a dime a dozen, you were a gem

So shine on without me, and I'll continue to shine on without you

 -Written by my friend Kayla Bolton

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Stay Strong...

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So I guess one little decision has the power to change everything,
And when your chasing your dreams,no way you can give 50% in order to achieve your goals...you have to give everything,
But maybe that's just me thinking from my point of view,
Since nothing in life comes without sacrifice,so just take caution in what you decide to do,
On the right path but ended up on the wrong road,
My heart gives me the missing answers,so I just try to do what I'm told,
To be honest....I never saw this coming...even from a mile away,
I'm really happy it did though...so what more is there left to say.

So much problems we can encounter,so much success we can achieve,
Life is like an empty canvas..it can become anything you want it to...you just have to believe,
I'm no magician...I don't have any tricks underneath my sleeves,
But what I know is love can sometimes be magic,but magic can sometimes be an illusion...so like I said,you just have to believe.

I will just write a couple more lines before I let thing poem finally come to an end,
I just hope you hear the truth in my words,or can fully understand the inspirational messages that I sometimes try to send,
The power of happiness has always been inside you,you just have to decide how much comes out & when,
If your reading this,just remember that your still here for a reason,so no more haunting memories of looking back then,
This journey is a long one...so always stay strong...my friend*

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Incase you cant read the words in the picture above..this is what it says..

"When things go wrong,as they sometimes will,When the road you're trudging seem all uphill,

And you want to smile,but you have to sigh,When care is pressing you down a bit,Rest if you must but do not quit.

Life is queer with its twist and turns,As everyone of us sometimes learns,

And many a fellow turns about when he might have won had he stuck it out,

Don't give up though the pace seems slow,You may succeed with another blow.

Success is failure turned inside out,The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,

And you never can tell how close you are,It might be near when it seems afar,

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,It's when things seem worst that you must not quit"-Anonymous