Days of Days..

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I saw something in the shadows..
It kinda looked like the old me..
I gazed a little deeper,saw a reflection of the past..
Interested in all the little lessons I (from the past) might show me
You see, what we perceive about ourselves isn't always true
We aren't overweight or too skinny,
We often treat our bodies brand new
It might sound corny,
But most of us are perfect just the way we are
Even with every bump,scratch or scar
I've seen days filled with hate
And not enough love
Days where everyone needed a true friend to make them smile
Or simply just give them a real hug
When we spend time with each other
We really need to take it in
Be around the ones..who never judge you
And let you express those feelings and emotions you always feel like you have to hide within
There's not enough days to be a copy
So be who you're meant to be
Don't be like everyone else trying to be same..go be somebody else..

I hear you talking..but really what are you trying to say..
I received a call from my Aunt,saying today her dad passed away
I tried to continue talking,but I didn't really didn't know what to say..
You can have the tightest hold on things..but some still things will manage to slip away..
Now she's flying to JA,if only I could be there for her..and let her know everything will be okay
That call made me think about my dad,
He's been trying to reconnect with me lately,but I'm so content with how things are..does that
make me bad?
I hope not,wishing all the bad parts of me would wash away
We've all had those days,where we've felt totally alone & all the ones who truly cared
have been washed away
But they're still here & so are you
The best days of your life haven't happened yet..
Yes, how that last line above is so true..
And in the end they realised..it never really mattered who was always right and who was wrong..all it came down to..was who truly tried doing the right things..and who would help,try undo all the wrongs..

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Sarah..

So today was your last day…Around 3pm tomorrow..you will be on a plane to Korea flying away

You're probably  the most amazing person I met here so there are some things I wanted to take the time out & say..

To take it back a little,we met in FTAC about two years ago…

Now we're saying goodbye,you never see the good times coming…you just get to see them go

But I want you to always know..

That things might be difficult at first..but sometimes you just have to go with the flow..

If I had to place a bet on someone in the Airforce it would be you..

We shared a lot of personal things,yes this is true

If you were ever hurt or needed help…there isn't a thing I wouldn't do to help you

We're are basically like family,bonded by love until our existence is past due

I know you'll be okay wherever you land..

And no matter how hard life tries to hold you down,just do your best to stand..

To stand high & to stand tall..

I'll always be here if you need somebody to call

From getting BTZ to being someone most people can adore so easily

I hope the words I'm writing to you now,will show how much you mean to me

I know your kinda nervous..I would be nervous too

But look at the positives of going somewhere new

Something to note is, the best times of your life hasn't happen yet

Live every moment to pleasure,don't believe in regret

Life is always about that next big step

You've grown so much,into a smarter & more beautiful women that I could ever expect

We are so proud of you Sarah McDermott,you will always hold a special place in our hearts

I'm not even sure how many miles exactly we will be apart

Just always remember…that stars shine the brightest in the dark

So shine throughout the darkness…and shine through the light..

I know where ever destiny places you..you'll always be alright..

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Days In The East..

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Chase your dreams…don't let them chase you

Don't take it the wrong way..I'm just trying to inspire you

Before the military I wasn't sure what I was going to do..

To be honest there are times when I still don't know what I want to do..

But I know I want to be that person that all my loved ones can run to

Runaway…Runaway

Are you listening to your heart?Or just what others have to say?

This is the only game where no one gets to win,or no one gets to stay

So say all the things you need to say..

Do all the things you dream to do

Make being a happy person something that happens all the time..and not just when you get something new

We're too materialistic, some have everything by having nothing

Don't listen to what they used to say in high school..you will be something

To keep it real..I never dreamed of ever visiting London or Spain

When the hand your dealt sucks…something you just have to keep playing

Long days but short nights..

I hope you eventually find euphoria and your internal compass leads you right..

Thinking about the list of people I'm going to have to say good bye to

You know the ones who always kept it real from day one,who I never had to lie to

The only reason to look back,is to see how far you came

There will always be people who try and hold you back,but those are the ones whose position in life will always stay the same

So dream big…imagine one day you'll be flying to your dream location by plane

New memories,new friends & perfect times

These are the moments I'm happy I signed my name on the dotted line

When you already have the best people..what else is there to go out & find

I hope your happy

I hope your okay

I just want to say thank you..

You were the only one who was there for me in each & every way

We never really lose someone when they pass away..

All we lose are the chances to say all the heartfelt things we never took the timeout to say

So say what you need to say & send them some flowers while they can still smell them

Speak from the heart & deeply express everything you desire to tell them

('It is easier to build strong children than to repair broken men'

-Frederick Douglass)

But I've been demolished before..

All it took was someone who sincerely cared

Not being able to hold onto happiness was something I always feared

But after gaining some wisdom..I know happiness can only last if it's shared

"All the happiness in the world stems from wanting others to be happy,
and all the suffering in the world stems from wanting the self to be happy."
-Shantideva

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Melrose

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Someone gave you all my love..all the love I was giving to you

You were scared of what was real..so you just accepted the love that you knew wasn't true

Most of those guys didn't even take the time to get to know you

But I guess half of the blame falls on the fact that..you don't really know yourself..do you?

Now your in a place where I can't even help

I don't even know what was real..or what you really felt

But when you treat someone so cold,eventually it will be your turn to melt

So I'm floating..I'm floating away

They say the safest place is your heart..so that's where I plan to stay

I don't ever want to see you hurt again..but it's hard to know what's real

In a life where all everyone does is pretend

You and me are part of a plan…

One which I don't think anyone around us..really understands

Now I just feel numb,all these girls want something different from me

Trapped in a cycle of lust and fun

All these things in front of me

They slowly pick me apart from the person I want to be

I'm tuning into one of those guys

I never wanted to feel comfortable with telling lies

But no one wants to hear the truth either

Truthfully I wish I didn't meet her

This girl called life

Most of my friends back home..are having their first kid or getting engaged or already have a wife

I'm suffocating,I just want to breathe

Don't need someone to give me the things I want,but who gives me the things I need

I think secretly we just all want to be freed

To escape all the social pressure and greed

They want you to be this way and that way

To dress and talk and wear your hat this way

I don't have to be the best,I just have to be better

I hate how I expose all my flaws with the type of every single letter

Everything is just happening so fast,none of these friendships/relationships no longer last

Why are we all so in a rush,the faster we go..the faster we crash

Can I still save you from you..

Can you still save me from me..

It feels like I've been locked away for so long

I'm just glad you got the key

You had it all along,you just didn't know

We all have a special part to play,even if it doesn't show

Take care of yourself & always smile

I haven't encountered someone as unique as you in a while..

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Devil May Cry

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They say try to forget,they advise for you to move on

But how do you allow something so right,to be tainted so wrong

Some wait an entire life-time for that one moment to feel alive

But if you don't go out there and get it,it may never arrive

We're all connected in someway

Will the rest wake up and finally realize that one day?

Cherish all the little moments,before they fade away

And listen to your heart,& say the words you've been dying to say

That one person who crosses your mind before you fall asleep

You could be the strongest person around,but when they're around you suddenly become weak

What do your actions really speak of?

Are you really portraying what your really made of?

You might be lost forever,but that's okay

The secret to life,is adapting anyway

Adapt to trust,don't adapt to lust

There has to be a you,before there can be us

We're all searching for something..something we may never find

Why do we shut out our hearts,and allow people to store their thoughts of hate in our mind

I mean,when you think about it..we really are just destroying our own kind

We're able to go buy the most expensive watches,but still seem can't afford to spend the time

On those who really matter,on those who really care,because showing who we really are deep down inside is something that still fills us with fear

So break free..break free

If you can't do it for you,then please do it for me

"It won't be in vain,

To swallow all your pain"

Never give up,Don't allow yourself to ever feel unaccomplished again..

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Flight Of The Navigator ..

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When two strangers automatically connect..

Without saying a word..their communication is perfect

With no worries of what the world holds next

Because the love they share..mirrors all the happiness & joy they choose to reflect

Is this time any different than the one before?

The say love is when your okay with receiving less and happy to give more

Now I drive about an hour to reach to your door

I can finally lock all the ones in the past that weren't so for sure

It's December 23rd,about 4:19 pm

I have so many different goals & ambitions..I look forward to when I finally reach them

I'm reading this book about Buddha,and he said 'Each person must find the truth within his own being'

You are who you think you are..at the end of the day..does it really matter what the rest of the world is seeing?

And when I see you, everything & everyone else disappears 

The time flies by,it's like we've known each other for years

When we talk about our deadline,it brings you to tears

But nothings for certain..so I'll hold you close until you relax and let go of all your fears

It's been a while since I've been able to write

I guess for once..things I finally starting to go right

I did say before..when you start to hear from me less and less

That means everything in my life is perfect or just one big mess

You can hate me for that..or just take me as I am

Threw away trying to make everyone happy,because depending on others is never a good plan

But I do have about a handful that I can count

That no matter how little of any currency I have..I would always be rich in the sense of being a genuine person..that's the most meaningful amount

So I guess I just want to say thanks,

Thanks for being here,thanks for caring

Everything good & bad that happens to me..is what I'm always sharing

You helped open my eyes for the better

All our wonderfully moments together..

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Good People

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There will be few good people in your life..Ones who you know for sure you were meant to cross paths with..Ones who  continuously make a positive impact on you..

Ones who see the bad in you but still choose to stick around..

Learn to appreciate these people..because there will come a time when they can no longer be around..~

You know that person who always tried to tell you the right things to do..

Who when you need a hug or a helping hand..they gave you two..

That no matter how deep in the mud you were..they would help you get through 

You know the person who always put themselves in other peoples shoe

I'm always in my feelings..and I'm learning that's okay

Someone needs to say..all the things we are thinking..but everyone is just afraid to say

I met this person the other day..

And after they told me their story..I started thinking a different way

The type of person you can call at any time or night

That no matter what you did to hurt them,they are still more concern on making sure you're alright

That when your world is so dark and so cold..they become your sun..your warmth and your light

Like the person who taught you how to ride a bike,the most important lesson you can learn..is to remember to always get back up after you fall

no giving up in sight

An ear to let it all out to,a shoulder to cry on

No need for a play list,they know all your favorite songs

When people talk bad about them,you know it's not true

In my head all I can think is..if only they knew the real you

You're something great

No matter how far off the topic is..we somehow always relate

We both know what's real & what's fake

Watch out or the ones who won't help you prepare it,but are only there to eat your cake

Learning happiness is something we can all create

"It's better to be hated for who you are,then to be loved for who you are not"

That's probably one of the most important thing in this poem that I was trying to state..

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