Nostalgia..

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So here we are...In a place we never thought we would be again
Were we best at simply being lovers?Or more spectacular as friends
Your face still haunts me every single day
Half way across the world...And I still cant get away
I always seem to lose in this game of love...why do I continue to play
Maybe I prefer to loser to be me...and not you
My little angel...look how fast your grew..

Still trying to find me...feeling like the best people
were left behind me
I'll always be living in the past..
because I'm not sure if a better future exists
Please excuse me if one day I just say goodbye to everyone
and leave for life's exits...
My head is hurting,my heart is pounding
The way you would sound when you just woke up..
nothing was as beautiful sounding
I'm doing all of this...but what does it really mean
Living a good life,trying to keep my conscience clean
but this false image of hope always seems to come in between
I'm pretty good at covering everything up..but when I start writing
it's so easily seen
I try...I try
To think positive...but with no one close..everything just feels like a lie
But I can remember it like it was yesterday
Your probably wondering why I'm such a mess today
This is just what happens when I give my heart a chance to say
whatever it pleases to say
These days go by.and the time does too
Nostalgia...my only happy place..was with you

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Comfort Zone..

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All the way to the top..
Just be honest with yourself...
There's too much people out here looking for fame, luxury & wealth
Not enough standing up for whats right
How do some people even fall asleep night?
We all have a calling..something right just for us to do
The only problem is,many of us gets tricked,into thinking we don't have much to do
The lies grow...while the truth sinks
We sometimes fail to take a step back & wonder what our creator thinks
We lost track of what we were sent here for
Shouldn't we be trying to make life less difficult for each other?..not more
So many people I actually love & adore
If I could...I would give them my wings just to see them soar
Always more to life...don't be scared to open up that next door
Sometimes to get to the top...you have to start from the floor..

People say I'm different...when I'm really just the same
I just use my heart more..vs how we've been trained to think with our brain
It's so obvious to just help someone whose feeling pain
We all were once that kid that no one liked...who everyone used to call names
Something in my blood..I can feel it in my veins
Because my brother Nathan,when it comes to love...feels like we've been through the exact same lane
This thing called 'Happiness' that I always talk about..always feels so hard to maintain..
But its something I want every single one of us to attain
So we must go out there & find it..nothings going to happen if we just sit & complain

These days fly by...as I sometimes gaze into the clouds & wonder why
Why, are they trying to kill the greater good?Why do they want us to die?
If a bird is meant fly,why do we catch them,cut their wings & allow them to live a lie
So many things...we should just let be...and leave alone
The memories of 'You' & 'I'...always hit me..when I start listening to the zone
Like Neale Donald Walsch said,'Llife only begins...at the end of your comfort zone...'

It's not how Good you are,
It's how Good you want to be.
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Everything..

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Alone in the dark...getting lost along the way
Your mind says to go...but my heart says to stay
Vaguely remembering all things you use to say
Were the only words I needed to hear, to get me through the day
These thoughts follow me,like they know I did something wrong
Where's all the love?Aren't we all suppose to get along?
Loving you right...even when you treated me wrong
Nice guys finish last...but just for how long..
What I deserve...vs what I always get
I guess it's always my fault for having too much to expect
Now my only regret...is regret
And the times you told me you would always remember...but your starting to
forget
This open wound I have...that everyone seems to neglect
I cant be as bad as them...is what the mirror fails to reflect
The only person I would die to protect
Ends up stabbing me in the back,like their someone they just met
Bleeding out...I'm blacking out
I guess only with true love....can anyone ever truly figure me out...

Running away...but never far enough
This word gets harder...ain't things hard enough?
Fragile...So fragile
Can't even risk another touch
Because I've loved with all I had...
But was never returned too much
Feelings getting confused when theres
Lust with a hint of rush
Now the feeling of being satisfied is a must
And the added words of 'I Love You' is a plus
But when its all over...if its not with the person you love
That whole affair is basically a minus..
Whats Love without Trust...
Whats Life without Us...

My eyes only see what your willing to show..
But my heart knows more...than what you want me to know..
The moment when our hearts start to lose that special glow..
Is another way of saying...'I think its time I let you go'
And away you went...or away I did
I use to think love was such a beautiful thing...
When I was so young and just a kid
Now I see it's true face
At the end of every finish line...just awaits a new race
Life keep sending me on trips..I'm always at a new place
Just how much heartbreak..can one heart take...

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Simple..

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Have I fallen victim to this game?
Some say it's impossible to be both happy & sane
If I could be just one...I would be happy
Because in a sane world,no matter how I try to get away..
All these problems & thoughts I try to leave behind...always seem to catch me
Dying just to be reborn
Losing it all...just to see what I could earn
I'm I lost...or just going my own way
Listen to the ocean..or the sound of the wind..or gaze into the stars
It's better than listening to what they do or say..
Become a dreamer...Dreams always show you theres a better way..

No Love Lost.No Love Found.
So many tears have fallen onto this distant ground
Love is always the best...when its not trying to be seen..
It's silent..no need to make a sound
It's just a look...It's just a feel
So much a simple touch or acknowledgement can help heal
The truth is...what if any of us aren't really real..

The best of the two hearts..are hardly chosen
The opportunity you have now,is golden
Sometimes to win..
You have to lose..
What's better?Being chosen
Or getting to choose
The biggest mistake..
Is the one not known,until its too late
The more love we give,the less hurt we receive
The more hurt we give,the less love we receive
Simple..

"The man who wants nothing...is invincible"
-Unknown
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Do or Say?Slipping Away..

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I really wish you cared more...I really wish I was there more
All this time spent on earth,sometimes I wonder what we're here for..
Things aren't like there suppose to be,your suppose to be here close to me
My days start to over lap,looking in the mirror,seeing not but a ghost as me

A heart is only a heart when its full,not when its empty
Just remember my words...its ok if you forget me
And when the flame gets low,summers suppose to heat things up,but the love you feel is still cold
When you would do anything to make things better again...just name a price and its sold
We're really all just Outsiders...Stay Gold..Just remember to always stay gold

And just never lose yourself...

Losing something you can never get back,telling people the truth..just look how they react
It's hard to move forward,when your always trying to go back
I'm just following my heart,and look where I'm at
I hate the fact that I'm mostly right,too good to be true,now your out my sight

A feeling you should love to have,and hate to fight
The good mornings start disappearing and your alone at night
The only time you feel above those other girls is when your on a plane..why are you so scared to make your dreams take flight?
And this shit is killing me,I cant even write
Love is blind...when will someone help me see the light..


These people pretend they like they know me
But I can see through their disguise...what are you really trying to show me
Been to some places that I never want to go back to
Sometimes I get sick of trying
So sick,but theres not point of me crying
There's people out there with less than me,and there just happy there not dying..


What will I do when it all stops making sense
When every other day is just another regular day spent
I don't have long,my times running out
I have all these visions in my head,but writing is the only way they will ever come out
Thinking if I could go back to where I was before
Back then I wanted to fast forward my life to the future...but that's not something I want anymore


These words....these words are all they really give me
I look happy when I'm around them...but when I'm alone again...that's when it all crashes down
& hits me
When did things get so vague and unreal
Happiness is nice when it's untroubled...but it seems to lose all its contents once you break its seal
Can we rebuild whats been broken down?
Those echoes of silence seem to be my new favorite sounds
You can never know...they will never understand
Trying to lead her in the right way..but the devil holds her hand

Slipping away...slipping away
I would usually do something,but I'm curious to see what you will do or say..

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Never Alone..

Always do more than what the world expects of you..
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My heart goes out to you...those rarely so spoken to
The ones they call different...the chosen few
Because I've had a few..of days when my stars had no shine
When I felt like everyone moved ahead...while I just stayed behind
Happiness & Love...the only things that make it worth it every time
Can also be...the most two difficult things to find..
But I'm right behind you..you wont be walking alone in this line
We'll just keep on moving forward,until we feel our hearts give us a sign

My exact words..could never mean enough
It just takes the love of one true heart,with a protective touch
Aging through life...shows us things take time and we shouldn't rush
The people who believe they know everything about the world..but fail
to treat other's kindly...fail to know much

The little things can do so much more..
Just imagine your heart..constantly pumping just to provide you more
More strength to do all the things you wanted to do
More love to spread to the ones in need..and close to you
And to the ones far away..As long as the sun shines
I promise you will have your day..
Your day when your the happiest you can be
All the good things you did...you feel the positive karma finally catch up to me
But most importantly..from the moment you go to sleep..to when you
wake up in the morning...you feel nothing but happy
Any anger or hate...please let it go past me

Never feel like you have to be seen with anybody..
Just to feel like somebody
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Distance..

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Staying at a distance...a distance is where I need to be
You dashed away all the hope I had,so now its no longer up to you
hence...only up to me...
Feeling locked outside the world,but I don't even want the key
Realizing sadly enough..that not even freedom comes free
But sorry this is just my look at things...feel free to express with me whatever it is you see...

Smiling faces & broken hearts....
You can never really tell the difference between the two
unless you actually pay attention,be there & listen..and do your part
Life is no game,more on the lines of an misunderstood art
So while it's still here,paint & draw away...because when it all said & done..
They won't be anything left to do....or say
Not looking towards the end...just saying do what you can today*
Too much or too little,I know things feel like they can never be in the middle
But I'm willing to be here for you...if your here for me
I just want us to take off these masks...and become the people who we truly desire to be*

A couple more lines in....A couple more thoughts out
Who knew the more I gave in,the more you would draw out
Looking in the sky,tired of seeing all these supernova's...bring the real stars out
Because it feels like I'm at the end of my line..its been drawn out
Only if I could erase....just being able to erase...
There wouldn't be a fragment of me left here on earth...or out in space

But nothing comes easy...so find what you need to find
Whatever it is in your heart...whatever it is on your mind
Every now & then,things just take time
So put your best foot forward...no more looking behind..
All it really takes is for you to truly believe in yourself..
Now close your eyes..use your heart...and tell me what you see
Just one more thing...before I have to go...
You can be the greatest thing there is..
The choice is yours...That's all I really wanted you to know..
Make Yourself Proud*

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