Hate Sleeping Alone

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Gave my heart away...and it seems to be to the wrong one,
Now I see why it's better just chill with you close circle when your trying to have fun,
Since love's no fun....it's a serious game,
You either win or lose...no retry's here... no trying again,
So I scarficied my name....and I scarficed my time,
Feels like my life is moving forward toward greater things...but I somehow getting left behind,
So how does it feel...are you happy now??
Transferred my lifestyle from civilan to military...and bascially all everyone can say is 'wow'

So what I learn??....It's hard to tell
That maybe this world is filled with wanna be angels...but they're really sent from hell
Locking my heart up....and throwing away the key
Now whoever wants it I guess...will have to bring it to me
And maybe that's the key...to see when you walk away ....who follows
Or who will fill your emptiness...when your life feels hollow
I'm half empty or half full...Happiness looking like a wolf in sheep's clothing..so I'm scared to see whats underneath the wool
All this has as happened & I still dont understand...Love makes you feel like a little boy again....when your trying to be a man
No longer up to me...so I leave it in God's Hand....


I'll probably hate myself some more after releasing this poem,
Since it allows everyone to read....what I'm feeling inside from all the way back home,
But I cant hold back when I write...It just all comes through
I hate sleeping alone.....but what's even worse is I hate sleeping without you....

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Sure Thing

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So here we are......in a place I cant describe
where one heart hears the other one knocking so the first heart decides to hide
but you cant hide forever....all things come to light
been having alot of rainy days....but everything we be alright
so look outside the window and tell me what you see
life promised me a sure thing...so I wonder what that will be
will I become rich?famous?or just an undiscovered soul
I just driving on the highway to heaven....trying to skip the toll
because I've given so much to people....almost feels like there is nothing left
everyday has its meaning....so I guess there must be something left....

I wish you could hear the words my heart has to say...
Even if when we talk......our conversation's don't always end the right way
Not point of simply casting away our hope,and trying to dash faith away
Nothing set in stone...but you have my word.... in my thoughts you will forever stay....

Love me while I'm here....then go ahead & hate me when I'm gone
Sorry for the wait....never expected things to take so long
The sun's coming out....we can make it a beautiful day
Happy Thanksgiving...I hope you all just take a little moment to pray
Be thankful for what you have.....and even for what you've lost
Since sometimes it takes losing something very precious...to help us realize we've been lost
Lost in sin,Lost in Hate,Lost in Love....One day we'll all sit among the stars....No, we'll sit high, high above

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One this day everyone....take a close note to the ones who try to make you laugh & smile everyday. Remember the ones who only wanted/wants the best for you....Because those are the ones who actually care....If your close to a loved one or friend...hug them, write them a note...do something to let them know you care...Because those of us who are the military...give up holidays like this...so you can live without fear....One sure thing before I go....The world may not be a perfect place...But never ever.....let go
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Doing It Wrong

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Sometimes I wish it would just happen already...and happen fast
because who I'm i kidding...I'm I gonna be able to last??
as I start to put some future thought in my past
you had my heart covered up....and you used your lies as the mask
'What I'm doing wrong'you ask... I reply...look within yourself for the answer...that's not something you should ask....

Too much things I've lost,but yet still so much I have gained,
I've lost the time I had with you,but gained a little release of pain,
but now when we get married,it will be a nice private island where you can only get there by plane,
and its not about money,its about love....and it looks like out of all the guys,I'm the only one whose paying,
so I spend and spend my love on you until there is nothing left,besides...without love in the world...what really do we have left?
when I hear your name,I see us spinning in my mind...and I will treat you like your in the military...make sure your never left behind.
so I keep you on my time,so your always on my watch,
and your beautiful is my favorite sight,so how could i help not to watch
but beauty will fade,so that's why I love you for who you are
and I'm constantly on the move...so I hope you can feel my love from afar
similar to how we can never be close,but yet see the the brightness from a star
which is exactly what you are..........*a star

I really don't know whats going to happen next,
Some of us will find that new love...while some of us just stay missing our ex
Stuck in our own little world looking to find that person who we think is best
Which will never happen...because it has nothing to do with your eyes....you have to feel it in your chest
So take a deep breath,close your eyes and start to think,
You know you found the one when silence is in the room,but yet your souls start to sync
So don't unplug our love....that's the wrong thing to do
They ask me what I believe in...but I never answer...I just turn and look at you.....

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